your gunna ask me how I am,I'm tell u I'm fine. Ur gunna ask me what I m feeling I'm say in feeling ok. Do I cry. I might, I'm scared if I do I won't stop. Why do I cry, idk. I feel like Noone hears me, my family in these terms and my therapist. HMMMMM, JUST THEM. I don't trust ppl do not too many friends on the friendship line. The one friend I have for long time I believe isn't really a friend. Maybe cuz I can't believe anyone anymore . My schizophrenic son says he won't hurt me. I know his true self won't. But his "off" self I don't trust. Fuck even his true self scares me. Ppl will say I told you, I will say I know. Ppl will say why don't u listen and do what ur suppose to do. I'll say IDK. So where am I..I'm just between lost, dieing and death . Ppl say be strong your strong. My reply I can be, I don't wanna anymore.