My Unwanted Friend
So I see that you’re back and have taken your hold.
Dark, and deep, and incredibly bold.
Looks like you’ve got me, tight in your grip.
One wrong move and I surely will slip.
Treading water... Just getting wetter.
Hoping that this time, things will get better.
I wander aimlessly, avoiding the action
Existing in life, but not gaining traction.
You’ll sit down beside me, whisper death in my ear
And I’ll lean in toward you and just disappear.
You’ll take all the pain and the sorrow away
And I will give in for I just cannot stay
But then something in me, a courage will stir
And my head will be clearer, I’ll see through the blur.
I’ll fight my way back and fend you away
I’m not ready to go. Not me. Not today.
I can distance myself and reach out my hand
Get out of the water and onto dry land
You’ll move to the distance growing small as you go
And whilst I’ll still see you, I won’t say hello
And though I need things to change, to come to an end
It won’t be with you, My unwanted friend.
Katelou Jaye