I had my first appointment with a rheumatologist yesterday. I knew what to expect. Best case scenario: blood tests and imaging and a follow-up appointment. Worst case scenario: "there's nothing wrong with you, go home." I wasn't surprised that the doctor said there was nothing wrong with me, but I was surprised how much it hurt me. I waited for months and hoped that he would be the one to finally tell me that I'm not crazy and that there's a reason that I can't do normal 20-year-old things. He didn't' even offer testing. I am so defeated and so disappointed. I don't expect someone to fix me, but I'd like someone to take me seriously and believe me when I say that I KNOW something is wrong. It sucks. #DoctorsSuck #Defeated #wheretogonow