I don't have any energy left to keep fighting to live. What I do every day can't be called living, it is existing, for what? I am sure I will end my life at some point, so why can't I just do it now. My loving husband has always been my best friend, business partner and now my caregiver. Each day it is becoming more and more clear that he is worn out with my shit. If I disagree even the slightest little bit, his words get more hurtful than I think he realizes. Then , it feeds like he lays on me, by saying, "well I guess I should just shut up and let you handle it ". That is not the kind of marriage we have had for 35 years. I got injured worse than we realized, years ago, in the ocean and in the snow. They took my life away from me and my family, that's why I am pissed at Mother Nature. #I AmReadyToLeaveLife. #PissedOffAtMotherNature