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I really wish I could cut ties. Her emotional abuse is really harmful.

I told my mom when I was 5 years old that the doctor made me wrong because I was supposed to be her son. She punched me in the head. So I told her I was just kidding. She told me to never say that again. I never said anything about it until...
Fast forward to 16 years old. I read the book titled Luna. It answered so many questions for me. I finally realized I wasn't alone.
I came out of the closet to my friends in December of 2009. I came out to my family on Valentine's Day. The next day I was kicked out for being a "disgusting freak tranny whore". My dad said I was trying to mutilate my body. My mom cried and hit me and asked what she did wrong to make me a freak.
Fun times.
I haven't spoken to my mom since August 10th. I have no intention of reaching out to her. And she's not going to initiate contact. So I don't know.
#LGBT #MentalHealth #abandonment

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I’m new here!

Hi, my name is Voyager1. I'm curious about AddHd being connected somehow from growing up in a very dysfunctional family and having suffered mostly verbal and physical abuse in the form of slapping or receiving punches on the head. This is not a fake post or a joke. Thanks to all who wish to add a comment or follow up with me.

#MightyTogether

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My heart hurts. Pandora's box opened in me today

The last time I spoke to my mom, I accidentally texted her one of my poems about my dad being abusive to me and the best thing he ever did for me was die. She texted asking why I said those things and I didn't bother replying.
I am so tired of this game of hers. So many people have told me to cut ties but you don't know just how traumatic it will be. I'd lose my only connection to my daughter. I don't talk about her cuz I'm trying to hold myself together.
3/4ths of my attempts to unalive myself were because I didn't want to live with the memory of the last day I saw her... Even now it's feels like I'm drowning.
I was a very broken mess. I was misdiagnosed and on something for depression and my mom would ask me if I took my pills cuz I wouldn't put up with her abuse. She thought pills would magically make me easier to manipulate. Boy she was very dumb.
I don't really know what I'm doing. Part of my subconscious keeps saying I don't deserve happiness.
I'm sorry. There's a lot of my trauma I haven't even told Pauley cuz I'm trying so hard to just exist and make people happy. I hurt, physically and mentally. But the mental pain is morphing into excruciating physical pain.
So the only way to even be marginally functional, I have to ignore my memories of my daughter and keep going.
But how could I do such a thing after my daughter was my only reason I stayed a*l*i*v*e back then?
So if you wonder what is in my head... Well, listening to music on my earphones actually blocks out my mental chatter. Right now I'm listening to Iluka and Ian Elliott.
I've got a nasty migraine. I can feel it in my eyes. Oh but it isn't possible for my eye disease to be causing migraines. I need a different adult strabismus surgeon.
So if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna try to shove my most painful memories back in Pandora's box.

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LET DOWN POEM

Like aloud room you want to Escape from

And finding your Love is a Prison on Fathers Day

Like hotdogs n BBQ's no one wants

ONLY TO YELL AT A BITTERSWEET ENEMY THAT WAS LOVE

LIKE SONGS IN A FOREST BUT ALINE WITH A WHISKEY OR FLAMES

LIKE TIRED BUT EXPENDING EVERYTHING FOR EVERYONE FOR NOTHING

LIKE THE NOTHING AND DEATH WISHES AND THOUFHTS ABOUT IT

SO MY LOVE'D SET HIM FREE

LIKE THE EXPENSIVE AIR CONDITIINED WALLS OF A HOME THATS A PRISON

LIKE GRIEVING WITH MUSIC ON FIRST DADS DAY OF LOSS

TO BE YELLED AT INCESSANTLY TIL YOU DIE TOO

LIKE MUSIC'LL SOLVE IT

NO MY DEATH WILL

LIKE STRIVING ON HAPPILY

TIL THE DARKNESS HITS OR JUST HITS YOU

LIKE GODBROTHERS WHO METAMORPHISE INTO STRANGERS

AND LOVERS TOO

AND FAMILIES TOO

LIKE ABUSE AND SONGS AND INCARCERATIONS AND SONGS

LIKE KIDS ON A BEACH, PRIVELEDGED BY THEIR WATERS

LIKE SWIMMIN IN SHIT

WHICH FATE IS THEIRS

I CANT HOPE ANYMORE

LOVES EVERYWHERE BUT NOWHERE

WHO DO YOU SEE

WHO HAVE I KILLED JUSTMYSELF

NO I DONT WANT A TABLE N HOTDOGS

BUT SOMETIMES MY DOGS SENSW MYBTEARS

HI HOW WERE YOU WHEN YOU WERE ALIVE

DOES ANYONE ASK

LUKE INDIAN HEALTHCARE WORSE THAN AN ORANGE PLAGUE

LIKE ALL THE LOVE N LIVES LOST N BLARING MJ SONGS N LIGHTS N YELLING

THATS DEATH

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My mom is a special kind of stupid

My mom is a certain kind of special
A few weeks ago my mom told me she doesn't believe I'm sick and that I'm doing this for attention. She told me I must have fucked with the MRI results. Then I must not have deformities in my hips cuz my Ped would have found it. And I'm probably screwing around with my eyes on purpose.
She said I shouldn't need meds anymore cuz I had a surgery and doctors don't screw up so my doctor must have been a scam. No mom, I had a multiple awards winning neurosurgeon.

My mom graduated high school and then immediately got a cute little job until she found herself a husband who can carry the family on his back. My dad on the other hand went to northwestern college. He owned a hardware store for my entire childhood. I worked for him on payroll when I turned 14 and he used my checks to get boat toys.

When I lived at home, one night my middle sister asked her dad "why do only men get prostate cancer? What part of the brain is it in?" He looked at me as milk shot out my nose. That's when mom defended the*redacted*... "Don't make fun of her, it's not like that's common knowledge!"

Any questions as to why I'd rather sleep outside a public library during a thunderstorm and they had an awning than stay one day in that house.
#Abuse #neglect #FamilyAndFriends

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Personal - only post here 🥰

There are days when waking up feels like returning from somewhere deep — not broken, not lost, just carrying more than you let the world see. And before you step into the noise, you get a moment that belongs only to you. A moment where your breath settles, your body remembers itself, and your mind decides how much of its night‑world it wants to bring forward. You don’t have to arrive in full brightness. You don’t have to “power through.” You can enter the day in layers — the way your body actually prefers. Strength isn’t the loud thing people imagine. Sometimes it’s the quiet decision to keep going without abandoning yourself. In this community, you don’t have to pretend your pace is faster than it is. You don’t have to shrink your needs or apologize for the days that feel heavier. You get to show up exactly as you are — thoughtful, aware, and doing the work of staying connected to yourself.

Your mind and body have carried you through more than most people will ever know. That’s not weakness. That’s endurance. That’s intelligence. That’s lived experience that deserves respect. #Abuse alone in the slow mornings, the recalibrations, the small victories that no one else sees. You’re part of a group that understands the courage it takes to meet each day honestly. And honesty — even quiet honesty — is a form of strength that changes people’s lives. You’re allowed to take your time. You’re allowed to be human. You’re allowed to be here. Xo peace xo and love always xo #PTSD

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TWENTY-FIVE: 30 Days of DID

What are some of your favorite books on DID? Did you hear about DID before or after your discovery of multiplicity? In what context did you hear about it?

***QUESTION TWENTYFIVE: Have you read books on DID? If so, what are some of your favourites? What are some books you would like to read in the future?

Moreso in our beginning stages. Once this started to look like The Final Answer, we got a bit obsessed, and the results of all our reading were a mixed bag.

For clinical fare, it was a relief to see myself in the pages, while also maddening that it took so long. In memoirs and autobiographies, we found relatability, experiential confirmation (and tinges of jealousy as we had no Lighthouse at the time), and real-life documentaries made us feel both seen and scared.

Finding connection and understanding was invaluable, but we also didn’t realize how unhelpful some of it was, especially when we were still learning: inadvertantly triggering ourselves by going too fast, exposing too much too soon, and activating parts of our system we weren’t even aware of yet.

We mentioned some books and other media already in Question #20.5, but I’m not super interested in seeking out DID-specific entertainment as much anymore. I don’t like how much of it is presented, and even media I like gets me riled up with incorrect or exaggerated information.

Plus, so much content about DID is littered with so much trauma dumping, near-pornographic descriptions of abuse, and fantastical portrayals of alters, that it’s near-impossible to read. Who is that even for, anyway? You will never find that shiz in our biz. Explanation, not exploitation, please.

***QUESTION TWENTYFIVE-and-a-HALF: When did you first hear about Dissociative Identity Disorder? Was it before or after you discovered your [multiplicity]? In what context did you hear about it?

Answered these in #8 and #8.5. And the context was always clinical. Except that one time denial tried to lead me down a distracting, dangerous, natural path. (Bad avenue. Don’t. Will explain later.)

#DissociativeIdentityDisorder #DissociationDisorders #dissociativedisorders

*** survey credits & links can be found in the original article, "A DID-ecoder Ring?" on our website. ***

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Feeling unsure, looking for non-religious support

Greetings all. I'm new here. I joined because I realize that I need to talk about my thoughts and feelings out loud but I have no "safe" place to do that. Any mention of suicide with my psychiatrist will land me back in a mental health institution and that, my friends, is a hell I will never willingly submit to again. I'm 67 years old and I began wishing I could exit the planet when I was a very young girl, around 8 or 9 years old. I was the youngest of 5 children in an extremely strict and religious household and my older brother hated me from the minute I was born. He tormented me with horrible words and physical abuse for many years. Then, when I was around 8 or 9, he added sexual violence to his arsenal and I had to live with that terror for another 3 years or so. One day (I was probably 9) I decided I couldn't stand the pain and I tried to cut my wrist. My mother found me and punished me severely. She kept the situation secret from my father and other siblings and I received no medical or psychological help. Ever since then I've lived with suicide thoughts, not constantly but quite frequently. I learned how to hide my depression and to most folks around me I am certain that I seemed like a normal, successful person. My late husband knew, though, about my suicidal wishes, and he did everything he could to love and support me (we were married for 32 years). Now that he is gone, and I have no human relationships that are close enough or strong enough to offset the suicide desires, I'm seriously considering following through. I have initiated contact with a VAD clinic in Switzerland and am in the middle of going through their application process. But I'm finding that at times I am torn about the decision. I know that I'm not going to get any physically healthier...it's pretty much all downhill from here, and I'm terrified of being so alone and needing help with my care. I have no one at all to help me, so I would have to find and pay for assistance if I have an issue (like total knee replacement). The biggest thing for me, though, is that I miss my husband so much. He died 2 years ago and though the grief is more tolerable now than it was, I still yearn for him acutely. I suspect that the moments of "doubt" I'm having are based on the biological imperative of my brain trying to keep me alive, rather than on any sort of logical thoughts. Sorry this is so long...hoping someone might be able to relate.

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How Triggers Impact Everyday Life with PTSD

I have scoured books, read so many survivor stories, and taken so many college classes just trying to understand how it is that a roommate of only a few months can still cause so many flashbacks years later. Just one selfish terror of a person can leave someone so jumpy and angry years after they not only have been removed from my life but are even removed from life entirely of their own accord.

I know now that not everyone is going to develop a mental disorder from stressful experiences, and many will in fact, develop resilience from it. Unfortunately, I guess I'm just one of the unlucky sensitive people who got to spend most of their life as a target and gets all the fun experiences that comes with it.

I don't get the "pleasure" of having normal PTSD, but of course it is "complex"; something that develops over years of repeated traumatic experiences that I never learned to deal with and can't seem to recover from.

Every time I hear hard footsteps I panic, and I think about if I should climb out a window, or if something terrible is about to happen. I know I'm not the only one who has had to plan the times they leave their room over when someone is in the areas they are traveling to or from, but that kind of high alert is not something that can simply be turned on or off. I try to tell my nervous system that just because someone is walking hard doesn't mean that they are about to barge in your room and yell at you or start an argument with you full of verbal abuse if you dare to enter the same room they are in. My nervous system laughs at me because it has evolved over millions of years to keep me alive and it will not be reprogrammed so easily.

Unfortunately, my fear of heavy footsteps extends past one bad roommate, but includes past partners, and other roommates who had the same behavior. Of course, everyone seemed great at first while they were wearing their masks, but after they befriend you they just slowly start chopping away at your sanity and self-esteem until the same pattern repeats.

Yes, the damage to your self-esteem and agency causes you to continue to put up with bad behavior from other people that causes these problems in your life. I broke the cycle, but the wounds still remain.

#PTSDSupportAndRecovery #healingjourney

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Trauma-Informed Care: Seeing the Person, Not Just the Behaviour

By Rise Above Your Norm

“Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.” While this saying has become common, it carries a truth we often forget. Every behaviour has a story. Every reaction has a reason. Every person deserves to be treated with dignity.

As a social worker, I have witnessed firsthand how trauma shapes lives. I have worked with children, youth, adults, and families who were often labelled as “difficult,” “manipulative,” “non-compliant,” or “attention-seeking.” Yet, when you take the time to listen, you begin to understand that these behaviours are often survival strategies developed in response to overwhelming experiences.

Trauma-informed care is not about excusing behaviour. It is about understanding behaviour.

What Is Trauma?

Trauma is an emotional, psychological, or physical response to an event—or repeated events—that overwhelms a person’s ability to cope. Trauma can result from:

– Physical abuse
– Sexual abuse
– Emotional abuse
– Domestic violence
Neglect
– Human trafficking
– Racism and discrimination
– Community violence
– Substance use within the family
– Childhood loss
– Poverty
– System involvement, including child welfare or justice systems

Not everyone experiences trauma the same way. Two people may live through the same event but respond differently depending on their age, support systems, previous experiences, and resilience.

According to the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA, 2023), trauma can have lasting effects on an individual’s mental, physical, emotional, social, and spiritual well-being.

Trauma Changes the Brain

Trauma is not simply a memory—it changes the way the brain and body function.

When someone experiences trauma, the brain becomes focused on survival.

The amygdala, responsible for detecting danger, becomes overactive.

The prefrontal cortex, responsible for reasoning, decision-making, and emotional regulation, becomes less effective during stress.

The hippocampus, which helps organize memories, may also be affected, making traumatic memories feel as though they are happening in the present.

This explains why someone may:

– Become angry quickly
– Shut down emotionally
– Dissociate
– Avoid relationships
– Misinterpret safe situations as dangerous
– Have difficulty trusting others

These are not character flaws.

They are survival responses.

What Is Trauma-Informed Care?

Trauma-informed care (TIC) is an approach that recognizes the widespread impact of trauma and responds by creating environments that promote healing rather than causing additional harm.

Instead of asking:

“What’s wrong with you?”

Trauma-informed care asks:

“What happened to you?”

Even better:

“What happened to you—and what do you need now?”

This shift changes everything.

The Six Principles of Trauma-Informed Care

SAMHSA identifies six key principles:

1. Safety

People need to feel physically and emotionally safe before healing can occur.

2. Trustworthiness and Transparency

Building trust requires honesty, consistency, and clear communication.

3. Peer Support

Healing often happens through relationships with people who have lived similar experiences.

4. Collaboration

Professionals work with people rather than making decisions for them whenever possible.

5. Empowerment, Voice, and Choice

People who have experienced trauma often had control taken away. Trauma-informed care restores dignity by giving individuals meaningful choices.

6. Cultural, Historical, and Gender Responsiveness

Trauma does not happen in isolation. Culture, colonization, racism, gender, and historical experiences all influence how trauma is experienced and healed.

Why Trauma-Informed Care Matters

When organizations fail to recognize trauma, they may unintentionally retraumatize the people they are trying to help.

Examples include:

– Using shame to change behaviour
– Isolating individuals
– Punishing emotional reactions
– Removing a person’s voice
– Threatening services
– Ignoring triggers
– Focusing only on compliance

These approaches often increase fear, mistrust, and emotional dysregulation instead of promoting healing.

Trauma-informed care asks professionals to slow down, remain curious, and respond with compassion while still maintaining appropriate boundaries and accountability.

Trauma-Informed Care in Child Welfare

Children involved with child welfare have often experienced multiple forms of trauma before entering care. Separation from family, placement changes, and uncertainty can add further stress.

Trauma-informed child welfare practice emphasizes:

– Building trusting relationships
– Maintaining predictable routines
– Supporting family connections when safe
– Listening to children’s voices
– Understanding behaviours as communication
– Collaborating with caregivers and community supports

A child who refuses to engage may not be defiant—they may be frightened.

A youth who lashes out may not be aggressive—they may be protecting themselves in the only way they have learned.

Trauma-Informed Care in Addiction

Trauma and addiction are closely connected. Many people use substances to numb emotional pain, reduce anxiety, or escape traumatic memories.

Recovery is often more successful when treatment addresses both trauma and substance use rather than focusing only on stopping the addiction.

Healing requires safety—not shame.

Healing Is Possible

Trauma changes the brain, but healing changes it too.

Research shows that supportive relationships, therapy, safe environments, emotional regulation skills, cultural connection, and hope can help rebuild neural pathways and improve well-being.

Healing is rarely linear.

Some days feel like progress.

Others feel like starting over.

But every step toward safety, connection, and self-compassion matters.

Final Thoughts

Trauma-informed care is not just a professional framework—it is a way of seeing people with humanity.

Imagine if schools, hospitals, shelters, child welfare agencies, workplaces, and justice systems all asked one simple question:

“What happened to you?”

Imagine the lives that could change.

Because behind every behaviour is a story.

Behind every story is a person.

And every person deserves the opportunity to heal.

At Rise Above Your Norm, I believe healing begins when we stop judging people’s survival strategies and start understanding the pain that created them. Trauma may shape our lives, but it does not have to define our future. With safety, compassion, connection, and hope, healing is always possible.

BigmommaJ
#traumainformedcare #MentalHealth

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