When Depression Hits You Like a Wave and Tries to Pull You Under
One good day and I think I’m better.
I’m over it, I am healed. Then it hits me again from nowhere.
I am stuck again.
Lost in my thoughts, my memories, yet I am awake enough to know what is happening, but without any way to stop it.
It’s a wave in the ocean that sneaks up on me when my back is turned and rushes over me, pulling me under.
I can’t get my breath.
I want to cry but can’t.
I can see the light above me but can’t reach it.
I begin to give into it, let myself sink and be carried away but something inside won’t let me.
It’s a glimpse of a memory.
It’s my daughter. She is laughing and I know I have to fight to touch the light again.
So I kick and scream until I emerge from the water, drenched and exhausted without knowing how I will get to tomorrow.
But I know I have to.
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