This Is What Living With Depression Looks Like


For those who don’t know what depression is or what it feels like…

It feels like a never ending cycle. Wake up. Struggle to get out of bed. Take your meds. Attempt to eat something, succeed at eating something, go to class, go to the gym, listen to music, all while thoughts run through your head. Is living anymore really worth it? Is there a purpose?

This person in my brain tells me life isn’t worth repeating the cycle every day. You struggle to get anything productive done in your day. Then you stress about how unproductive you’ve been. You want to spend time with friends, go out to parties and enjoy life. But this life you live just holds you back. You repeat the words “I’m just tired” to friends numerous times a week for an excuse to stay at home and stare up at the walls. You question yourself. You question how can some days be so bad and others are good. You think. You cry. You take your meds. You attempt sleep. No sleep, more stress, more thoughts. Sleeping means dreams and nightmares. Sometimes I can’t decide which is better.

Many of us who battle depression are tired, exhausted and losing hope. Fight to end the stigma behind the dark times many of us face in life.

If you or someone you know needs help, visit our suicide prevention resources page.

If you need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text “START” to 741-741.

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