How Creating Comics Helps Me Manage My 'High- Functioning' Anxiety


For years, I’ve drowned my anxiety and depression in work. I’ve seen several doctors who have said I have no reason to have anxiety so my symptoms must be temporary.

But anxiety wasn’t temporary.

I worked more so I would never have time to do “nothing.” Because doing nothing means overthinking.

Creating a full comic book in two months in addition to working at my full time job? No problem, I could handle it.

I actually couldn’t. Creating my comic was no longer a pleasure. I burnt out.

Suddenly I couldn’t do anything. I spent days crying in bed without knowing why.

Why couldn’t I just get up? What was the point? 

My comic book felt pointless. I felt pointless.

I then I remembered what Jonny from Hope For The Day said.

It’s OK not to be OK.

Asking for help is being strong. So I went to the doctor again. It took me months to get back to drawing. But this became the best way for me to express the things I couldn’t explain and I shared it with the world on my tumblr.

Today, I would like to share a comic I just made about what a day with “high-functioning” mental illness feels like.

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