To My Best Friend, Whom I Talk to When I Am at My Worst

I am so lucky.

I wake up every morning knowing that no matter what happens, you will still care about me at the end of the day. And with anxiety, it is so hard to be confident in a relationship. So, I am lucky to have you, someone who understands what I am struggling with and who is willing to remind me, as often as I need it, that you will never leave me.

Thank you for answering the phone at 10 p.m. because I am having an anxiety attack while driving home. Thank you for talking me through my tears and helping me ground myself. Thank you for not getting off the phone with me until you knew I was safe at home. Thank you for knowing exactly what to say and making me smile when I was so afraid of how I felt.

Thank you for leaving me an audio message instead of texting me when I was convinced you would leave me. Thank you for knowing I needed to hear your voice and making sure I knew you would never stop caring about me.

I doubt every relationship I am in and there are nights when I am sure I have no friends, but you are always there to assure me I am not alone and will never be alone.

You know more about me than any other person on the planet and there is no one else I would rather have at my side when I am having an anxiety attack.

Thank you for being the only person who has ever understood what my anxiety is like. Thank you for telling me that, no matter what happens, things are going to get better. Thank you for calming me down and reminding me to breathe.

Thank you for not just seeing me for my anxiety.

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