What Being in Recovery for Cancer Really Means
When someone says they’re in ‘recovery’ for cancer, this is what they really mean.
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I’m in recovery for cancer.
But that doesn’t mean I’m better.
What Being in Recovery For Cancer Really Means
Recovery means the ‘what if’s.’
What if I hadn’t gotten cancer?
What if the cancer comes back?
What if I’m not really ‘better?’
What if my body is beyond repair?
What if people treat me differently?
It means unintentionally feeding a mental illness that fills up with terrible thoughts.
Maybe I deserved to get cancer.
Maybe next time I won’t be so lucky.
Maybe someone I love will get cancer.
Maybe I’m not as strong as I thought I was.
Maybe I’ll never get my shit together.
It means feeling guilty for surviving when others have not.
It means forever having emotional and physical scars.
It means constant checkups and accepting a new ‘normal.’
It means anxiously awaiting unknown test results.
It means being prepared for what could happen again.
I may be in recovery for cancer,
But there is so much more going on.
Sometimes I need a helping hand to remind me of my strength
And that I can face whatever comes my way.