To the Man Who Saved My Life When I Was Hospitalized

You took me under your wing,

When I thought I was in hell.

You saved my dying terrified life,

And taught me I could be well.

I don’t remember how you look,

And I don’t even know your name.

I know that you were older than me,

And you helped me play the game.

You told me to use my left hand,

For some reason I still don’t know.

You told me there were lots of Jesuses

You really helped me grow.

I was in a catatonic state

And psychotic beyond belief.

But when you spoke to me,

It gave me some relief.

I think about you all the time,

The man who saved my life.

You still help me feel better,

When I face my strife.

I wish that I could talk to you,

And ask you what was wrong with me.

If you are out there,

Please reach out to me.

If you or someone you know needs help, visit our suicide prevention resources page.

If you need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text “START” to 741-741.

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