Psychosis

I'm a 6x suicide survivor it occurred approximately once every 2 years from the age of twenty. I used weed to cope with things however my body cant handle the withdrawals and that causes psychosis. in the 5 times that I went into psychosis I ruled out dehydration, caffeine, inadequate rest and the product being laced. I finally accept that it doesn't agree with me, however I feel like the damage is done and I hope my brain can heal from all the trauma. I have severe disassociation, however my long term memory is unimpaired - my brain is just kind of tuned out in the present most of the time, it's a natural trauma response. My last breakdown was a few months back. I would love to become a mental healthcare advocate and share my story but there isn't many places where that is allowed.

My therapist says she cannot give me the support i need yet when l asked the Gp for psychiatric support like a psychiatric nurse they said I could can keep myself safe. I feel so let down I really do! I’m hearing voices, intrusive thoughts, seeing hallucinations (demons etc) it’s so terrifying! I even saw my dead biological father too and he died years ago! I was so scared! I really need to go back to the doctors and tell them I need the support now because of this. My therapist says she cannot offer the expertise or training unfortunately. It’s so sad as she’s so lovely too. I’ve had her for years.
If it wasn’t for my cat I would end it all! She’s the reason why I’m still breathing bless her! #Depression #Psychosis
#Anxiety

Hi, my name is solo_crow. I'm here because I'm on the last frayed nerve and it's snapping. I'm sooo exhausted. usa mental health industry has made things worse...
I guess I should rant in a room that's meant for this. I miss smiling. laughter is a fading memory. laughter is more like folklore.
#MightyTogether #Depression #Migraine #PTSD #Grief #Cancer #Psychosis

Well it's been another year since my last post, not sure why but so far I haven't had any episodes this year. So if I only show up annually, it would certainly be worth celebrating especially if I can keep this up.

Hi, my name is vin080225. I'm here because
my young adult son suffered drug induced psychosis he’s delusions and paranoia included that I had abused and harmed him as a child he was sectioned for 28 days and had has now become estranged.. he sent me messages saying that I abused him as a child he reported me to the police. still after 8 weeks of psychosis he still believes these delusions - I’m completely heartbroken
#MightyTogether

I want to be a gentle supportive partner
He’s currently experiencing psychosis symptoms
I’ve seen him go through it before and it was in and out of the hospital for 1-2 months
this time it’s less suicidal tendencies which is amazing and I’m grateful to know he’s safe
But some of his actions and some of the things he’s saying to me are exstremly inconsiderate and hurtful
Examples he downloaded a dating app and then promised me he’d never cheat on me and has been telling me that his ex is meant to be in his life still (something like that)

How would you feel?
I’m genuinely asking anyone who reads this because personally
I feel disrespected and angry and just adding to the depression I’m already struggling with

I know that he is not himself right now
But it doesn’t make things hurt less
I’ve been trying to keep my cool and be here for him

But I have no idea what to do
The implosiveness is hard to keep up with
Constant cleaning and making sure nothing is set in fire

There has been so much age regression and I am lost on what I’m supposed to do

Any insight or advice is appreciated !

#BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Addiction #Advice #Psychosis

Hi, my name is PomegranateKiwi725. I'm here because i have a friend that I believe is in complete psychosis. He thinks he can move things and that everyone hates him and they are all trying to set him up. I want to undertand what i can do to help him.

#MightyTogether

I guess I’ll start with trigger warning
If you are someone who struggles with BPD related relationships, suicidal ideation, and relationships trauma which puts you in a not good mindset maybe don’t read this

So I guess I’m confused
Confused about how to feel
How to react
What to even say
So i guess this may be a rant a vent I’m not sure
My partner who struggles with BPD and potential DID and a Bipolar disorder
Has told me he has friend(s) who want us to break up
Im assuming this is because of whatever he shares with them
I did manage to bring it up to him just now
I’m not sure how the conversation started but I did share my thoughts about it finally
He said it was very honest of me
I told him that it was unfair of him to share that information with me
Especially because it was after I told him I’ve been extra depressed and suicidal lately
Personally I feel like that is an “off side” thing to tell your partner in general and just bad timing
Kind of something you keep to yourself and your friends i guess
Maybe I’m crazy for thinking that
I’m not sure it’s just my opinion
Anyways
He told me that it was someone in his system that told him that
But yesterday I overheard heard his conversation with someone saying “but I love her and you don’t leave when times get hard”
Something along those lines not verbatim
And I am jumping to conclusions maybe but i feel very sure that conversation was about me
In general i think that’s not an okay conversation to have infont of me especially if it’s about me
(I feel crazy and self absorbed writing about this)
Anyways
It’s hard for me to believe that it was just someone in his system telling him this and not a physical person in his life

This is just something that has been on my mind since he said it
How should I feel if he has friends telling him to leave me
I love my partner very much and have done basically everything in my control to be supportive of him
I mean in and out of hospitals
Reaching out to his best friends to check in on him
Tried my best to defend him when people in my life had something negative to say about him
Non verbal time
Bpd moments
psychosis episode
Much more
I just don’t feel heard or understood i guess
I feel like I try
All I’ve asked for resently is to be home for a little bit so I can decompress in my own safe space (we’ve been staying at his parents)
But even that has not been respected
I feel like if i could fill my cup just a little bit I could be a better partner
But I just haven’t gotten the opportunity to actually do it and constantly being shut down
I feel like I have no voice anymore
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BipolarDepression #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #alone #whatdoido