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Does anyone else experience slurred speech, broken speech, unable to speak, words disappear? I never know what to expect.
I'm so sick of this. Sound like an idiot then some people treating me like it. Tired of bring treated differently. I'm still me inside. I want the chaos in my head to stop. I want to speak like I used to without vices.
I'm trying to understand why it happens. Thinking, processing, answering questions finding information, tiredness, pain. My speech gets messed up and pressure in my head. If I don't stop what I'm doing next I know I'm waking up.
Yesterday I was trying to do a cognitive test for a job. I want to go back to work. There has to be a way. Something I can do. I feel useless. The pressure started in my head. I felt drugged. I fell asleep or blacked out?
I got to 26 questions out of 50.
The test was timed. I remember seeing #26 and 4 seconds left. Then waking up. Feel defeated.
I don't want to sound ungrateful. I just want old me back.
When Im relaxed I sound like the old me. When I'm stressed tired or pain or excited it starts. the pressure, the fatigue, the bad speech.
If I take my gummies or drink cannabis tea I think I sound like the old me before the accident.
I wish I could be that all the time.
#TBI #speech #BrainInjury

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