How I'm Content in a World of Daily Pain and Life-Limiting Symptoms
I have this thing.
The doctors call it a disease. My family calls it a devastation. I call it a storm.
My life has never been a calm blue sea; it’s always been a storm.
Here’s the thing about storms — they’re haunting and wild and loud and dark and unpredictable, just like disease.
But I love them.
Maybe this has something to do with a childhood spent in tornado alley. Anytime I saw clouds, I ran straight to the window with the hope that when the skies would part, the air would be fresher, the sky would be bluer and the world would become still, if only for a moment.
Dark skies, wild winds, the unknown… it’s all so frightening and exciting. Most people are terrified of thunder and they despise the rain; I welcome both. To me, it’s a new beginning.
I guess that’s why the diagnosis has never really been hard to accept.
The clouds show up with little warning, and the flare ensues as a nightmare to all who view it from the outside. True, I’d die a million deaths for one day outside of the haze, but my secret is, I actually like this hurricane.
It’s hard to explain.
People ask how I can be content in a world of daily pain and life-limiting symptoms. They get overwhelmed when they see me drowning in my situation. But I’m not drowning. I’m exploring the ocean floor with clear goggles. Because like AAG, the ocean floor is uncharted and undiscovered territory.
It’s the easiest thing in the world to be happy under the rays of sunshine. You’ll get wet, you”ll get muddy, but as they say, life is not about waiting for the storm to pass.
It always seems to me that when it rains, it pours. But it’s taught me how to swim.
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