I have done good for two days. Then boom, I did have a salad for supper, but then I’ve also had 3 beer, a cookie and ice cream sandwich and three small hostess chocolate donuts. Why can I do so well and then fail so fast? I’m in therapy, I’m on meds for depression, I am a Christian, but I’m so screwed up. It’s like I can’t get enough sometimes. The more I eat or drink, the more I want and then I just think I might as well go all in. Why don’t I have any self control? Does anyone understand? Please don’t make me feel worse than I already do! To top it all off my husband is a part of a ministry worship band and here I am. He has self control. One beer. One cookie. I hate myself and I need to lose about 10 lbs to top it all off. Maybe I should go make myself vomit. #bingeing #Alcohol #sweets #Depression #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Overweight