How Distractions Are a Relief From the Tricks Bipolar Plays on Me
Do distractions help with bipolar disorder?
Well, not when you’re driving, certainly. But when you have bipolar disorder, sometimes they do.
Of course, bipolar disorder is a distraction from life itself. And that’s not good. But every once in awhile, it’s worthwhile to give bipolar a taste of its own medicine.
Now, I’m not saying distractions are good in a therapy session or when you’re trying to meditate. But sometimes, when you’re locked in your own head, you need something outside of you to unlock it.
Personally, I need distractions a lot. And, given the popularity of coloring books and fidget spinners, so do a lot of other people. Fortunately, I have found many ways to be distracted. Some of my favorites are music, bad jokes, cooking shows, sleep and cats.
These don’t always work when I’m in the depths of depression, though I try them even then. But when I’m hypomanic, buzzing around without a landing site, they can help.
Music gives me both a chance to focus and a place to dissipate my energy. There are plenty of songs that express my feelings of depression, but also a number of songs that encourage me to let out the feelings of flying, of soaring, of digging life – Little Richard’s version of “Get Rhythm,” for example, or the songs that have punctuated my life with my husband.
Again, bad – or even good – jokes are no help to me when I’m depressed. But when I’m obsessing about some anticipated (perhaps never to materialize) crisis, they can pull me back from the edge. (Once, I called up a silly friend and said I needed a distraction. He said, “Look at the grouse! Look at the grouse!” — a joke I didn’t get until later when someone explained it to me.)
Cooking shows keep me grounded in a way. So does actual cooking. I’ve found that when I’m tense and about to lose it, making a cup of tea or heating a pan of soup grounds me, even if I have no desire for tea or soup. Making it for someone else is even more grounding. Cooking shows, even if I have no intention of ever trying the recipes, have a similar grounding effect. Unlike movies or dramatic shows, I know nothing terrible will happen, unless you count a chef cutting her finger.
Sleep may be hard to do when my brain is whirling, but if I can accomplish it, my brain gets a reprieve and perhaps even a respite with a hot-n-juicy dream (though not nearly often enough). I love the feel of cotton or flannel nightshirts or pajamas. I love the quiet and the dark. I love the giving up of the stresses of the day and surrendering to temporary oblivion.
Even sleep in the middle of the day soothes me. If I’ve been unable to sleep the night before, a mega nap the next day can reboot my brain and replenish my spoons. It may seem like an escape (and in some ways it is), but sometimes escape is what I need.
As for cats, they help me in so many ways. I find watching them wash themselves hypnotic and comforting. I find snuggling with them in bed soothing. I find their antics infinitely distracting. I find caring for them takes me out of myself and requires that I focus on another being.
If I’m able to focus (which is not always the case), I find reading to be a suitable distraction as well. I have a few “comfort books,” old favorites I can return to with an assurance that nothing too alarming will happen. I can lose myself and my anxieties in the struggles and triumphs of others. I can find distraction in tales of things I will never experience, like mountain climbing or space flight.
I have tried some of the tried-and-true distractions as well. I have several coloring books and a plethora of colored pencils. I have Sudoko and mahjong programs and word puzzles on my computer. I have my writing, which, while not always soothing, does refocus my concentration and provide an outlet for any troubling feelings I may be experiencing.
Being bipolar, I find my brain is both my enemy and my friend. It sustains me and betrays me. And it provides me ways to escape from its less sustaining moments. After all, if I didn’t have distractions, I would be locked within my brain with no relief from the tricks it plays on me. I’m glad there are ways I can escape, at least for a little while.
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