I don't have top dysphoria and I don't usually have bottom dysphoria*. But like right now when I have a yeast infection I feel broken. I feel so gross. But one of my most important mottos is "treat the body you have". I'm taking my meds and pauley helps by putting the betamethasone clotrimazole cream on my open sores. Id be lost without her. The pain is at 7 and the itching is at 7 also. I'm very uncomfortable. Pauley said it looks pretty bad.

Yes I am trans and would love to be the manliest man of mantown but I never will be. And that's ok because I still like some feminine clothes and my style is very mixed.

I am back on testosterone and letting it do its magic. My facial hair is coming in thick. Especially down the sides of my face. The only facial hair that isn't growing better is my wimpy mustache.

My voice is cracking again so it's getting deeper. But I'm also breaking out with acne on my torso and chest. My scalp and facial psoriasis is awful and it's effecting my beard.

So some good, plenty of bad. Such is life.

*Dysphoria: imagine you were born with a penis on your forehead. Everyone says it's normal because it's how you were born. But you don't feel right. You're uncomfortable, anxious, depressed, and want to have it removed because for you it doesn't feel normal.

#GenderDysphoria #bottomdysphoria