Gender Dysphoria

My #MentalHealth has been pretty low today. But right now I feel better. My partner made me a big pot of noodles for dinner. I always feel good when she cooks for me. And I made her a bowl of cheesy scrambled eggs. She loves my eggs.

But I'm in a situation... My gender dysphoria is bad right now so I need to wear a hoodie but I'm sweating a lot so I need to take off my hoodie. It's snowing pretty hard but it's hot in here.

I'm sipping on some coffee from earlier today. It's pretty good. She used the Nutcracker Sweet flavor coffee. I mixed it with my pumpkin caramel syrup and some oat milk.

December 21st is the winter solstice. It's a pagan holy day called Yule. It's my winter holiday. I exchange gifts and have a nice feast.

#Depression #GenderDysphoria #coffeeadventures

I have this love hate relationship with my body. I don't have bottom dysphoria cuz I've never wanted dangly bits. I am on norethindrone to stop my period. But I've got a really big chest. I don't have a proper binder. I use sports bras. But I still obviously have boobs. If I could afford top surgery I wouldn't want nipples. I'm weird. Id get a big chest tattoo. Maybe someday.

Well. As the holidays roll around (Thanksgiving and Christman for me) my emotions are all over the place. I am happy for like food on Thanksgiving and gifts on Christmas, but I also dreed those events.

I have to go to my Omas (Grandmas) for both events. And to my misfortune, there are so, so many people. All very religious people. I am not religious at all, well not all the way. My religion is a bit weird to others. So I don't like talking about it. But I hate family gatherings. They talk way to much.

"How have you been doing?" "How's school going?" "Are you still in Spanish?" "Thats a pretty dress." I hate when people, mainly family, ask me stuff like this. My Gender Dysphoria is always at its all-time high on these days. Its hard living in a family that thinks Lgbtq people don't exist. Thats hard a Transfluid, AroAce (More specifically Cupioromatic/Cupiosexual)

I am lucky for my Aunt (Who is supportive and also doesn't like big groups of people) because when things get too overwhelming for me, we can stand out. And I mean my mom is good also, helping me when I need it. But I wrote this not to rant, but to ask for help.

Any advice on how to like try to control my anxiety? Like any recommended coping skills? Any help is appreciated.

Thank you all and have a great day/night.

(Update: Thanksgiving is over and it didn't go well. I got sick a few days later.)

I have been dealing with some new loss of balance and muscle weakness symptoms recently. The neurologist is concerned. My partner thinks it's stress. But right now, all I can think about are my 17 existing diagnoses, all of which impact quality of life, none of which impact length of life. I'm not sure I can handle one more diagnosis like that. #AutismSpectrumDisorder #ADHD #PTSD #ChronicFatigue #Fibromyalgia #GenderDysphoria #Arthritis #Diabetes #CeliacDisease just to name a few

Hi, my name is ReassuringFalcon74. I'm here because

#MightyTogether #GenderDysphoria #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD

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Honestly, what the FUCK! I CAN’T FUCKING WORK! What is it that they can’t seem to understand?! My anxiety is a disability, damn it!!!

It’s been 3 FUCKING TIMES ALREADY, 2 FUCKING APPEALS, and I POORED ALL OF MY FUCKING HEART OUT ABOUT WHY I CANNOT FUCKING WORK, THE EMOTIONAL TRAUMA, THE EPISODES OF DEPRESSION, THE FUCKING HYGIENE ISSUES, MY SEVERE SOCIAL GENDER DYSPHORIA AS A NON-BINARY INDIVIDUAL AND AVOIDING MOST SOCIAL SITUATIONS OUT OF THE PURE FEAR OF BEING MISGENDERED, HATE BEING UNDER PRESSURE, HAVING MANY TRIGGERS! I was receiving payment for 3 fucking months, and NOW they’ve decided that my FUCKING STRUGGLES AREN’T ENOUGH?!?!

Honestly fuck everything. I feel like I’ll just never be truly seen by this US government. I’ve only just wasted my fucking time with them, and so really don’t feel like HAVING TO EXPLAIN TO THEM FOR THE 50TH TIME THAT I’M NOT MY BIRTH GENDER AND I AM NOT A BINARY GENDER!

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #MyAutismIsNotADisability #MYANXIETYISADISABILITY #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #FeelingIgnored #thissucks #Trauma #angry #disappointment #LGBTQ #Loneliness #sad #Vent #venting