I've been taking champixfor three weeks, and quit smoking 10 days ago. My work supervisor and collaborator has too--also with champix as an aid, though she is a week or so ahead of me.  Both of us are experiencing issues with anger, hate, depression, detachment.  She actually seems unrecognizable as the person I know and usually love.

There is actual and real friction and problems in our organization, and between us, that have been escalating since before this mood altering medication.  Its just now things seem like they are getting worse, much worse, fast.  Challenges I want to rise to now seem like unforgivable affronts from shitty people that I need to protect myself from and should quit/escape.  All kinds of old stuff in me gets triggered into overdrive--which further reduces my ability to make sound judgments or even my perceptions.  Like any kind of anger or threat, my brain gives me a pressing sense of urgency to "do something about this".

All of it makes me feel fearful, mistrustful, confused and helpless. a major CPTSD outbreak.

Reminder One:  Do my best to not make any big decisions right now.
ReminderTwo: I care about the people I care about and will treat them with love and respect regardless of how I feel or what a conflict looks like.
Reminder Three: Like any time of symptoms, my thoughts are not always trustworthy right now.  Let them come and go without attaching too much importance or meaning to them.
Reminder Four: There are no heroes or villains, just all of us together.
Reminder Five: Everyone is going through things.  Their stuff matters.  Their stuff matters to me.

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