I am Autistic and the disaster at Chernobyl has been a specialist subject of mine since 2001. It has recently been reignited by the book Chernobyl: History of a Tragedy and the HBO Series. I am super passionate and a lot of my social media/conversations have been dominated by Chernobyl. The problem is.. people are angry. I have been subject to a tirade of accusations of being disrespectful and insulting to those caught up in the tragedy. It has led me to feel very guilty and ashamed, my anxiety has gone through the roof and all I want to do is hide and self medicate at best, self harm at worst. I should change these unacceptable aspects of myself in order to stop offending everyone.. after all, we are supposed to care for the feelings of others, right? The problem is, I cannot drop Chernobyl as it brings me so much inspiration. #Autism #AutismUncensored #Chernobyl #Anxiety #Selfharm #SocialAnxiety