This morning, I was experiencing a lot of anxiety on my drive into the city for a urology appointment. With my background of abuse, I know it’s normal to feel this way. I came very close to canceling my appointment. Then I passed a sign beside the road. It asked, ‘What have you thanked God for today?’ I then realized I needed to thank Him for that urology appointment. I’m blessed to have healthcare when I need it. I’m blessed to be able to afford it when many can’t. Suddenly, my thought process changed. A peace came over me. I made it through that appointment, no problem. Later, I checked my doctor portal to see my test results. (Keep in mind, my healthcare team works together to help keep my PTSD from rearing its ugly head.) Under notes, my urologist wrote, ‘The patient is awake, alert, and in no apparent distress. The patient is oriented with proper insight to the situation. Patient exhibits a normal mood and appropriate affect to the situation.’
I am so proud of myself. I’m especially thankful for a God who understands me and my needs. He helped me focus on the flowers, not the weeds.
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