Rip Current
Just when I think I’m surfacing from my past trauma, it pulls me under again. I haven’t shared much here these past several weeks because I’ve been struggling. For those of you who don’t know, I was sexually abused from age 6 to 16. Therapy has been a lifesaver. A few weeks ago, two of my sisters revealed that the man who was having an affair with my mother, the same man who was abusing me, was actually my father. My therapist has been very supportive, even seeing me more frequently. I guess I’m still in shock. So many secrets. My three closest cousins aren’t even my real cousins. I’m afraid to tell them. Will they still love me? I thought I was Scottish and I’m not. So many thoughts I can’t run from. Shame tries to creep in. My God says He is a father to the fatherless. I pray this is Truth.
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