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I love using gel pens. The colors are so vibrant!
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

Today I transplanted several of my plants to bigger pots. They were outgrowing the old ones. I gave them fresh soil, sun and water. So like me as I’m healing. I feel fresh and new. I am growing, changing my perspective, reaching out my arms to enjoy life, becoming ready for what’s next. It’s important to take care of my needs. I want to thrive. 🌱
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

My neuropsychologist tells me it’s okay to be selfish sometimes. He says it gets a negative rap, but taking care of yourself first is important. I learned from the time I was very small NOT to be selfish. Abuse can do that. If you hear it enough , you begin to believe you aren’t worthy. Always, always put the needs of others before myself. It’s been difficult retraining my mind to believe otherwise. Lots of great therapy has helped. Sometimes doubt sneaks in though. I just had company for 4 days. By day 2, I was experiencing depression and PTSD symptoms. I didn’t recognize them at first because I’d been doing so well. I’ve now learned that I need alone time. I’m an introvert with PTSD, so being around others is exhausting for me. Next time I have company, I’ll make some ‘me alone’ time. After all, I must put the oxygen mask on myself first before I can be of any good to someone else.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

How valuable are hugs to you? I crave them and go days without them. They help me feel connected and accepted. 🫂
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I love seeing the male and female cardinals together. I am so thankful for my therapist. I call him my friend. I hope you have someone to share your ups and downs with. Or just someone to sit quietly with you. Who do you share life with?
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

Healing doesn’t mean the damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls your life.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I rescue dying plants and replant them, give them nourishing soil, and water them. They also get the proper sun they need to thrive. Yes, I even speak gently to them too. It’s a good feeling when they come back from near death. Life is precious.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

Matthew 7:12 reminds me to treat others the way I would like others to treat me. It’s called the Golden Rule. God does more than suggest it. It’s a law. Sometimes, when others lash out at us, it’s easier to want to react rather than respond. God didn’t say it would be easy. When I’m made fun of or yelled at, I can’t always think of a response because it hurts. That’s when I just walk away. I am getting slowly better at responding. I’ve noticed that, as I change in how I respond, others slowly change too. I’m no longer the victim. I’m God’s child. Be cool.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

My back deck is such a comfy place to sit and be still. I turn on the overhead fan and relax. I hope you also have a favorite place to unwind.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

Mother’s Day means something different for each of us. Some were blessed to have a mom who truly nurtured and loved unconditionally. Yours may be your best friend. Maybe your mom is no longer with you. Or, like mine, maybe she was abusive. I want you to know that, no matter your circumstances, I care and love you. My mom passed away 18 months ago. I now have peace. On this special day, I focus on the mom that I am. I’m thankful for the moms my own three daughters have become. No, I didn’t get the mother I deserved and I grieve that sometimes, but not today. Today I celebrate me. 🫶🏻
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor