childhoodabusesurvivor

This one of Taylor Swift is definitely the largest and most difficult piece I’ve done so far. Whew!
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

Four of my granddaughters built a tent of sticks. They were so surprised to see a baby deer come out of the woods and try to take shelter there. It was just looking for safety. Security. Precious.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I love walking along the river. Breathing in the fresh air heals the mind.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

It’s been seven long years of trauma therapy healing. It definitely hasn’t been easy. I’m not complaining. The changes in me are apparent and I’m very thankful. It’s like looking at this world for the first time without trauma lenses. But it’s scary too. Remember in the Indiana Jones movie when he has to walk across an invisible bridge? It took an enormous amount of faith for him to take that first step. That’s how I feel. God, please take my hand and walk me across. Don’t let go.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I know it isn’t easy to choose a different path than the one we’re born into. I was born in poverty and abuse. (I thought there were supposed to be bugs in the food.) I smelled bad. No one ever said ‘I love you.’ Not once. I didn’t know there was a God who loved me. But I made deliberate choices to be someone different. I believe it doesn’t matter where I came from. It matters where I’m going. God bless you all as you travel along. 🫶🏻
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

My little plum tree dropped its first fruit! I love seeing things grow. I planted the little tree that just looked like a stick. I poured buckets and buckets of water on it, birds sang in its branches as it slowly grew and reached for the sun, and I waited and watched. God is good!
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I just gave myself a dip powder manicure for the first time. The kit came with everything needed. I’ve really been trying to do more self care. It’s especially important for us when we’re struggling. 💜
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I love using gel pens. The colors are so vibrant!
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

Today I transplanted several of my plants to bigger pots. They were outgrowing the old ones. I gave them fresh soil, sun and water. So like me as I’m healing. I feel fresh and new. I am growing, changing my perspective, reaching out my arms to enjoy life, becoming ready for what’s next. It’s important to take care of my needs. I want to thrive. 🌱
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

My neuropsychologist tells me it’s okay to be selfish sometimes. He says it gets a negative rap, but taking care of yourself first is important. I learned from the time I was very small NOT to be selfish. Abuse can do that. If you hear it enough , you begin to believe you aren’t worthy. Always, always put the needs of others before myself. It’s been difficult retraining my mind to believe otherwise. Lots of great therapy has helped. Sometimes doubt sneaks in though. I just had company for 4 days. By day 2, I was experiencing depression and PTSD symptoms. I didn’t recognize them at first because I’d been doing so well. I’ve now learned that I need alone time. I’m an introvert with PTSD, so being around others is exhausting for me. Next time I have company, I’ll make some ‘me alone’ time. After all, I must put the oxygen mask on myself first before I can be of any good to someone else.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor