childhoodabusesurvivor

Mother’s Day means something different for each of us. Some were blessed to have a mom who truly nurtured and loved unconditionally. Yours may be your best friend. Maybe your mom is no longer with you. Or, like mine, maybe she was abusive. I want you to know that, no matter your circumstances, I care and love you. My mom passed away 18 months ago. I now have peace. On this special day, I focus on the mom that I am. I’m thankful for the moms my own three daughters have become. No, I didn’t get the mother I deserved and I grieve that sometimes, but not today. Today I celebrate me. 🫶🏻
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I thought it was interesting that I opened this fortune. One of the things my therapist is working on with me is safe hugs. I was sexually abused when I was growing up. I’ve never trusted touch since then. Before I leave each therapy session, I have the choice to ask if I may have a hug. I’m still a bit hesitant, even after four years, but they’re very therapeutic for me. My therapist is retiring soon. I’m nervous. Yeah, a lot scared. But I’m learning that all touch isn’t bad. That I have choices. That I matter. A lot. So do you. 🫂
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#christian
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#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
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No one else even comes close…

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#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
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#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I made a big meal yesterday for Easter. One tradition we have is making a wish on the wishbone of the turkey. Both people make a wish and then pull on their side of the wishbone. The one who breaks off the largest part wins and their wish is supposed to come true. I started thinking about wishes. My wishes. What would I wish for? What would you wish for?
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#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

Yesterday, I got my first tattoo. It says “Gan Stad”. It means ‘unstoppable’ in Irish Gaelic. (I’m Scot-Irish.) It was a very big step for me. God’s unstoppable! And, as long as I stick with Him, I am too!
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#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I didn’t always believe this. It’s only in these last 5 years or so that I found it to be true. My innocence was stolen from me when I was very young. I was just 4 when the abuse started at the hands of my own mom. I quickly learned the world was a painful and untrusting place. I withdrew. I hid. I was scared, easy to tears and easy to anger. My defense. I know now that there is good in this world. God DOES care about me. Abuse is never, ever okay. But everyone is not out to harm me. There is good. There IS. I choose to believe truth.
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#christian
#cptsd
#i’mhealing
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#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor

I know a lot of people here have found journaling to be a great release for them. I simply stare at the blank page and am clueless as to what to write down. My therapist gives me homework almost every week. He pushes me. I know it’s part of my healing journey. Last week, he asked me to title what a book about my life would be called. I also had to title all of the chapters. The title came very easily to me. I came up with eleven chapter titles. It was very therapeutic and describes my road to healing. It wasn’t easy, but I did it!
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#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
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#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
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I transplanted several of my plants today. They were outgrowing their environment. I just love seeing new growth, don’t you? 🪴💚
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#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
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I took this photo near my house. The countryside is so beautiful blanketed in snow.
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#selfharmrecovery
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Some days (okay, many days) can seem so tough to get through. Each one of us bears different struggles. I won’t say things like, ‘You’ve got this!’ or ‘It will get better.’ or ‘It will all work out.’ Maybe you don’t. Maybe it won’t. Not here in this imperfect world anyway. What we may have is a friend, or a family member, or a therapist to reach out to. Here at the Mighty, we get it. Share with us. Allow yourself to be lifted up. Lift up someone else. If you can read this, you can make a difference! 🫶🏻
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor