childhoodabusesurvivor

I used gel pens on this picture. Coloring calms my thoughts.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

You will need:
1 c canned pumpkin
1 c vanilla yogurt
1/2 tsp baking soda
2 large egg yolks
1/2 c cake flour
8 large egg whites
1/2 tsp salt
Whisk together pumpkin, yogurt, baking soda, egg yolks, and flour. Whisk egg whites and salt in separate bowl. Fold egg whites into pumpkin mixture. Heat a nonstick skillet over medium heat. Lightly spray with no stick. Poor in about 1/3 cup of the batter. Flip when tops are bubbly and edges are slightly brown.
These are so light and delicious!
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

Has anyone here had to write a confrontational letter to their abuser? My therapist has asked me to write one to mine. It’s a part of my healing journey. For those who don’t know what it is, it’s a letter written as tho you’re talking straight to the abuser. It’s supposed to be cleansing.
For those who have written a confrontational letter, what did you include? Specifics on the abuse? How it made you feel? Did you forgive them in the letter? How did you even begin? Suggestions are definitely welcome. I need to write it soon. I’ve been putting it off. The abuser was my mom, and I guess I’m still a little afraid of her. I’ll sit down today and try to write it. I’ll let you know how it goes.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

That was the question my psychologist asked me today. He challenged me to do something that shows love toward myself each day until our next appointment.
So, I went on a nature walk and took pictures. Then I came home and took a nice warm shower. What can you do for yourself?
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

I let fear get its foot in the door. It can be paralyzing. And rather than do anything, I do nothing. I’ve been working so hard in therapy these last four years that I was beginning to look forward to what’s next. Problem is, I started looking too far forward. Changes terrify me. Making decisions terrifies me. The thought of upsetting the apple cart terrifies me. I’m afraid to make healthy attachments. I don’t know if it’s because I don’t think I deserve them or because I’m afraid they’ll be taken away. That’s what always happened in the past. The loneliness is so deep. This morning, Dr. G reminded me that I am not the one in control. I don’t have to be. He said, “Talk to Jesus”. Here’s what Jesus said to me:
Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you" declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a
future.”
Philippians 1:6
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a
person's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.
Proverbs 16:3
Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and he will establish your
plans.
James 4:14-15
Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that
appears for a little while and then vanishes.
Instead, you ought to say,
"If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that."
Matthew 6:33-34
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I’m praying I live in the moment. That I appreciate what I have right now. He gives me so much more than I deserve. And God knows where I’m weak. He knows what I’ve suffered through. I believe His heart breaks for me. He loves me. He won’t leave me or lead me in the wrong direction. Only Satan can do that. And only if I let him. God give me strength. Amen
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

I used glitter gel pens on this one. It turned out pretty well.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

I hope you have a beautiful day today.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

I love to walk through the rose garden in the park. To be surrounded by so much color and life.
You are wonderfully made. Please remember.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

So many of us here have fought and struggled so much. I want you to know I’m proud of you for not giving up or giving in. Look at you. Still beautiful.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia

This mandala (circle) I colored brought me peace in my head.
#childhoodabusesurvivor
#christian
#cptsd
#gad
#i’mhealing
#incestsurvivor
#majordepressivedisorder
#mentalabuse
#mentalhealth
#ocd
#rapesurvivors
#selfharmrecovery
#suicidesurvivor
#supraventiculartachycardia