I had someone ask me to tell them one thing about me that was a positive personality trait. I couldn't do it. I had been having a bad day and it seemed to me everything I was doing was falling apart in my hands so my mothers voice (the woman who verbally and physically abused me till I was 15) was playing it's games and on mega blast.

My son is graduating in less than a month and all I can think about is that I am losing one of the last living things from his father (his father died by suicide in 04).

I know I should be proud because I have done so much but I feel like I am still so behind.

#childhoodtraumasucks #PTSD #livinginmyheadishardsomedays