In my last episode, it felt like my subconscious mind was awake and bridged to my conscious mind. For me that meant all my past memories were very accessible and everything seemed to carry a lot of meaning and things felt very connected.

I felt like I needed to understand why my perception was altered and why I was obsessed with understanding the meaning of words and numbers. I felt like neuro linguistic programming is subconsciously practiced by people everyday and people are not aware that they are even doing it.

I noticed some musicians claimed the illuminate group is real and they use the occult, symbols and numbers to perform mind control. I wasn't sold on the idea but I did really dig into the etymology of words and meaning of numbers and try to understand why others think of it as a form of mind control. Leaders use different language and often people struggle with the Leader's true meaning.

I thought maybe we subconsciously use the written word and numbers to try and persuade people and all of us aren't really that aware that we or anyone else is actually doing it.

Take for instance the title "dear", I've noticed how some people address others as "dear" or "love". It originates from previous, expensive or beloved. It is far better that being referred to as "hey you" and it could change a conversation you have with someone.

I use it now when I'm in remission and I find people like it, it's strange I'd never noticed it before. Does anyone else have these moments of realisation during their episodes?

321 my subconscious went back to sleep.

I wrote 123 to indicate the beginning and 321 to indicate the end. But did anyone notice? No probably not, perhaps it was out of your awareness. All TV broadcasts used to start with 123 and 321 is the reverse, so it's the ending.

Almost hypnotic....

I could go on, but then some of you might think I'm practicing mind control (joking) or you might think I'm triggered instead (OMG).

Please comment if you experienced something similar.

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