I’m so tired of being used. Lied to. Promised things that never materialize.

I’m exhausted. I don’t have the capability anymore to believe what they say. I know they’re lying to me. They have no intention of honoring their deal. It’s all just smoke and mirrors. Performative. Another way to hurt you. They laugh. It’s fun for them.

I’m still honoring what I said I would do. Because that’s what you do when you’re nothing. You stand by with morals and integrity and watch everyone else get the cookie.

I wish I was the kind of person who could take them on. I’m not. Maybe this time I’ll just stop. Stop fighting. Stop trying so hard. Stop thinking I’m worth something when clearly… I’m not. Give up. Give in. Take that plunge.

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