I'm Sorry I Canceled Today

I’m sorry I canceled today.

I know I said I forgot I had something to do.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that I didn’t want to wake up this morning.

I’m sorry I canceled today.

I know I said I had to go somewhere.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that I was writing my mom a letter to say goodbye.

I’m sorry I canceled today.

I know I said I wasn’t feeling well.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that I’ve spent the last three hours crying on the shower floor.

I’m so sorry I canceled today.

I know I said that I had a doctor’s appointment.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that I just don’t have the energy to fake a smile.

I’m really sorry I canceled today.

I know I said I had too much homework.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that if I saw you, I’d just cry.

I’m truly so sorry I canceled today.

I know I said my family was coming to visit.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that if you asked me what was wrong, I wouldn’t have the answer.

I can’t even tell you how sorry I am that I canceled today.

I know I said I got called into work.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that I can’t stand for you to see me like this.

I hope you understand how sorry I am that I canceled today.

I know I said I had to help my sister with something.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that I’m calling the crisis line.

I wish you would believe how sorry I am that I canceled today.

I know I didn’t answer your call.

But I didn’t know how to tell you that I feel like I can’t do this anymore.

I was going to tell you how sorry I am that I canceled today.

I planned to say that someone came to see me unexpectedly.

But then I opened the door, and it was you.

And I still don’t know how to tell you how much that meant to me.