This past weekend has been hard. My mother is dying and I’m numb to it all. Her organs are shutting down, with a blockage in her heart and like a little girl I want there to be a way for her to get better and other hand I’m upset because we don’t have the best relationship but I still want her get better and reality is she isn’t and I really don’t know what to do or how to feel. I’m a mother myself so I know have to keep going with my day to day and my son and still talk with my mom’s drs and this where I’m at and I’m rambling.