I don't like how I feel
Today wasn't a bad day by any means. I ate ice cream, I had 2 yummy cappuccinos. I got groceries. I had a good therapy session with Pauley and we did some really good journal prompts. But my back pain robbed me of my joy. I tried to make a cappuccino, a bottle of juice, and a sandwich... And I lasted 5 minutes before standing was too much to handle. I've spent 98 percent of the day sitting on my couch with pauley. I just got my last dose of Norco for the day. It was half of a 7.5mg Norco and the last 2 half pills I took didn't help. I know I need a whole pill at least once a day and then half each after. But she wants to stretch my meds. She wants me to use my tramadol but when the pain gets to 7 or 8 it doesn't work. My lumbar is really trashed. I gotta call my surgeon and see what they say. And then there's my eyes. Fuck my life. My vision keeps going double and it hurts. And I think I've been having absence seizures. I'm exhausted and every so often I just kinda space out and stare into the distance but I am not actually looking at anything. It hurts to focus my eyes. Like I'm straining my eyes. I'm just tired of being sick.
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