21 years after a horrible experience with a man, I was able to take a look at what had happened in 2005.
I desperately wanted unconditional, safe love (non-sexual). What I got was far from that.....
My autonome nervous system took control of the situation.
I had blamed myself for so long, for a reflex I had no control about.
Just because the fawn response was stronger than my logical brain, didn't mean I agreed.....
That man just saw a helpless 15-year old girl - easy to manipulate......