When my minds out of breath, and my bodies no longer mine to move, where are you? When my bones ache from sadness and my emotions are all drained, where are you? When I’m lost, so lost I’m scared, where are you? When I don’t have a voice, because my voice is so heavy it hurts to use, where are you?

I can see you, feel you, hear you, smell you, but your not really there… I can talk with you, laugh with you, walk with you and sleep by you, but your not really there………

when my minds out of breath, I can see you, feel you, hear you, but your not really there, when my body’s no longer mine to move, I can smell you, talk with you, laugh with you, but your not really there, when my bones ache and my emotions are drained, I can walk with you and sleep beside you, but your not really there, when I’m lost and my voice is so heavy it hurts to use, I can see, smell, hear and feel you….but you are not actually there.

But only when I’m silent, only when I’m gone, do you ask those unanswerable questions, like, ‘are you OK?’, ‘what’s wrong?’

But my voice is so past heavy, I just cannot bear to use,

‘ I’m fine….I’m OK. …’ …will just have to do……