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I’m new to this but I need help. I have depression anxiety and I also have horrible rage. I’m not entirely sure how so much anger and hate can take over me the way it does. Tonight I went after my bf. He is my future and the only person who understands what I go through on a daily. But I hurt him. I hit him. I didn’t even want to. He didn’t deserve any part of it and some how he forgives me. But I feel like a monster. I feel that with everything he does for me and how he supports me that he doesn’t deserve me. He disagrees and tells me remember your my person and I’m yours. I love him. Why in the world would my brain make me want to hurt him?? Why am I inside screaming and telling myself to stop and not being able to make it happen on the outside?? What is wrong with me? I hate what I have done to him.
