They'd put me on suicide watch if I had anyone who cared. Anyone who knew. I have five more months to live. Why worry about anything anymore? Cancel your appointments, stop paying for the pills, the tests, biopsies, and scans. Put a worldwide trip on credit cards, max them out, and leave no crumbs. After ten years, I've had it. I'm done. So, last year, I gave myself a "dead" line: one year for my life to improve. Either things would get better or they would not. In 143 days I will be dead and gone. So, I might as well make the most of it, eh? There's nothing left for me here. #ChronicIllness #suicidal #ineverbelongedhereanyway #ineverbelongedhereanyway