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I am struggling with flashbacks and nightmares. I need some grounding techniques to help me. Please let me know what techniques work for you. #major depressive disorder #c PTSD #Anxiety #suicidal ideation

I am here wide awake for the 7th night in a row. I'm exhausted mentally and physically. I see no future and everything seems so hopeless. I don't want to wake up in the morning. #major depressive disorder #CPSD #Anxiety #suicidal

I have been doing pretty well. I am currently on Spravato treatment and experiencing some success. This week all my friends are going back to their teaching careers and welcoming back their classrooms and I realize how much I am missing out on due to my mental illness. I feel I have lost my career and my identity and see no future. Just need some support or I am feeling very alone and scared. I feel like I am going down that deep dark black hole. #major depressive disorder #CPTSD #Anxiety #suicidal ideation

I just completed my 5th treatment of Spravato today. I have a feeling of calmness and lightness. What experiences have you had with Spravato?
#major depressive disorder # PTSD #Anxiety #suicidal ideation

I can't take it anymore. I've been lonely my whole life and people say it'll get better, but no matter what I do it doesn't. My family is abusive, I've never had a friend or romantic partner. I tried to make friends, I try to get partners, but I can't and I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm autistic. I've been in therapy since I was 15, a ton until I was 26 and got kicked off my parent's insurance. I was able to get ssi and have gotten a bit of therapy since then, but there are extremely limited choices and I can't afford the rest of it. Therapists just tell me to feel happy alone and take care of myself. I'm so exhausted from feeling lonely all the time, I can't even take care of myself. I've had insomnia for so long and it's really bad lately because of this. I'm losing my housing in three months and I've tried looking for every option I can and there's either too long a wait list or it's unaffordable on the 500$ a month I get on ssi. I don't know what to do and I'm being priced out of life. I already tried killing myself about ten years ago and I feel like it might be my only option. No one will help me or even want to spend time with me. #help #suicidal #lonely #Autism

I coparent with my ex of 21 years marriage and I’ve just spent time with my 17 year old son. I’ve now had to leave him and come home to an empty house on Mother’s Day and all the the way home driving, in my head I just wanted to not feel these feelings of loss and pain anymore. I just don’t want to hurt. #suicidal ideation #Sadness #Loss

I would never hurt him or my 21 yr old daughter by acting on the thoughts. I just want to heal and 2 yrs later after the divorce, I still miss the family routines, my children, my home and my pets.

I’m estranged from family and I have a partner but he’s v far ( long distance) and he doesn’t really understand these feelings, even though he tries to help me talk them through. He keeps telling me we have a future ahead of us but today I just want to not be here because it hurts so much to feel.

I made a post a few days ago indicating that I felt responsible for the abuse I had starting at the age of 5 through my late 30's with different abusers. Many were kind and responded to me. My question is how did you come to the realization that it was not your fault? What steps did you go through to get past the guilt and shame?
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#CPTSD
#Anxiety
#suicidal ideation

I want to update my playlist of songs to help ground myself when needed. Any suggestions of songs that you use that are helpful to you.
#major depression #ComplexPTSD #Anxiety #suicidal ideation

I am having difficulty dealing with the trauma of abuse in my past. I feel so much guilt and shame for what happened and put the responsibility on myself for not leaving the situations that were hurting me. I can't get past the thought it was my fault. My depression is daunting and I feel no sense of hope.
#majorepression #PTSD #Anxiety #suicidal ideation

I've had more insomnia & suicidal thoughts the past 2 years than I've ever had 😔