I asked, no, I took a week off from this cycle of getting demands that I can’t do anything with and being told how wrong I do it all. It all just felt too much like punishment and not enough just simple love. I tried to practice some self care. The response was a long email that told me I am a selfish human being and I was told again that he is going to leave me and never return. Then later I got a phone call from his mental health worker. He had serious concerns. We don’t know if he is going to be found and what state he will be in. Well, this selfish human being is now up waiting to hear from a search team on the other side of the world and is worried.