When something dangerous happens my #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder tries to convince me that I am either dead or in coma or whatever. Just had a terrible experience like 20 minutes ago. I was driving to work, was trying to get on the main road. The speed limit there is 70km/h some idiot must have gone the double speed. It one second I was yeah okay no car great and just when I joined the main road this idot just showed up so quickly. Nothing happend and I quickly managed to go, to not slow him down but his speed was just unbelievable. I am now scared that what if we crashed and now I am dead (cause my car is really $#itty ). My brain even creates images of how my parents are now finding out that I am dead etc... it feels so real. Oh my god. The feeling like it was meant to be that way. That I am dead.
Well, now I am trying to breathe and I am trying to stop it.
Btw. The arrogant driver outspeeded the whole traffic jam.
#Anxiety