Lifelongbattle

I hate holidays. I am all alone. I am always alone. Why? I am nice, caring, smart, funny, pretty. I have a job, money, house, pool. Where did I go wrong to have nobody in my life. I want to tell someone that I struggling but I have no one to tell. I want to tell someone that I think about killing myself but I have no one I can be honest with. I am fighting so hard to feel better. So hard! I am not a cryer yet here I am crying with sadness. I am so very grateful that I have you guys to listen when I feel this way. Love you all! Xo

When everything seems to go wrong, my first solution is still suicide. I’ve only attempted once and that was 14 years ago. I don’t think I’ll ever try it again. It’s just where my mind goes. Burn it down!! End it all!! That’s my solution.