I really dont feel that i make a difference to anyones life except that of my dogs. Everyone else will be more than happy without me. I envy those who are dead. #ChronicDepression #SuicideSurvivor
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#SuicideSurvivor #Survivor #fibromyalgiawarrior
There are times when you have to say theses words…
Get up
Get up
Get up
Yes not every morning is filled with happiness and bliss. Sometimes you feel like you are so tired but you don’t know why. That’s when you rest your head you rest your body but you don’t stay down you rise.
Rise and shine
The call you have times when your in pain you have times when your literally unable to move.
So you rest for a time in that time IT is up to someone else to shine. While you take a moment to sit back watch and smile.
Being an independent is hard on you for what ever reason you think you have to be part of the process. The truth is once you have shown the process others know how but will let you do all the work until you ask them to do it or you give it over to them to do.
Then IT is not up to you IT is up to them!
So when you burn 🔥 Out you need that rest there is no reason to busy about. Just rest and without a doubt everything will work out.
The main thing is you rise!
Don’t stay down…
Get up
Get up
Get up
Even if for a bit today and a bit tomorrow your still UP!
Someone out there needs this today!!
Your important
Your not alone
Your worthy
In the Silence Of My Tears
Sometimes when I lay in the midst of the night
I can see the darkest corners of my jagged mind
All the memories from demons past and present
come flooding over me
Nights turn to days … and … days turn to nights
As I lay in the silent embers of my burning tears
He lays next to me, Still I am alone,
in the midst of the night as I silently cry
Why must these demons haunt me eternally,
why am I alone in my tears
If all time is eternally present, how can I escape my demons past
How can I reach my future without maddening frustration,
without silent tears
With time past always in my presence
How can I escape the cold darkness of the aloneness
My sadness deepens with each tear that falls on deaf ears
Still he hears me not, in the stillness of the silence
My past and present collide into one
never ending nightmare of isolation
Is this my destiny
Sometimes when I lay in the midst of the night
I can see the darkest corners of my jagged mind
I scream out in silence through my tear stained face
See me, hear me, I am not invisible
As I lay in the silence of my tears
Wildfire 9/19/20
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There are so many people out there struggling you know cause your one of them.
The storm rages on and on yes but in the storm there is beauty. The winds that blow allow you to glow. So around and around you go up and down to and frow.
So you know just in case anyone hasn’t said IT to you today….
You are amazing yes you the person who is reading this very message today.
Your made of star dust that took billions of years to form in time so you would be hear to read this rhyme.
We all think we will be fine in time that’s why this is all so sublime. If we were fine there would be no reason to scribe this rhyme.
Some of you need a good laugh or even take a time to soak in a bath.
Whatever you do just do you that’s what’s going to be most helpful to you.
Please be the best you we all love U2
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#PTSD #CPTSD #SuicideSurvivor #Fibromyalgia
This is for you who ever you are yes you reading this that’s you the you especially you and you with U2
We hear you empathize with you and sympathize with you.
Ourselves were in a dark place and we were told to hold on when it all seemed so impossible
A person said to not give up to fight to be brave to no punch out stay alive. They said there are so many people counting on you so you can’t give up.
We never knew that through the PTSD The Chronic Pain the drugs the coping the lack of understanding and the collapse that we would even be here.
Now we are here for you to tell you that you matter you are not alone you are worth if your with toxic people or are not supported please know you have found the place of light and people here care.
We share our walk our journey so you and others know even when you loose your circle your family even if you loose it’s lm you get a chance to be a part of something better and bigger then you have ever dreamed.
No punch out clause no suicide no surrender
The only thing that kept us going was God and angels sent to us to comfort us as we passed through the fire.
Now recovered now helping others now a bright light of hope for all to see so you can be to and we would like to pass the torch and light you up so you can be another bright light and join the fight.
We salute you we are sorry for what you are experiencing we are right here with you and so is THE MIGHTY Crew.
Hugs to you
Thank you THE MiGHTY Crew
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Sometimes the blessing is pulling you out!
#SuicideSurvivor #Fibromyalgia #RiseAbove
Amen to this and all the above One Love
God sometimes sets you apart so you can spend time with him and heal.
Some of us get the second chance deal however it means life is completely reset and rearranged.
This is a blessing often misunderstood.
Think of it as a fish tank and a sick fish only gets better in a clean fish tank.
Now when the fish is healthy and clean all healed. The fish does not go back to the dirty or toxic fish tank.
The fish gets a new fish tank with new fish and is happy with out the toxic water and fish that made the fish ill in the first place.
Sometimes God gives you a new life in a new fish tank.
Thank Good for saving you and giving you a chance to live.
Amen
2 reactions TW: suicide. Back in the hospital #Suicide #PostpartumSuicide
#nopunchout #Survivor #Rise #SuicideSurvivor #onelove #RiseAbove
I found The Mighty when first diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. I stopped signing in and didn’t realize how helpful it is to hear someone else story about how they triumphed a disability or a bad moment. A few weeks ago I attempted suicide. This was due to the constant everyday pain and the work and life reprocussions of being in pain. No one seems to understand what daily pain without relief will do to the human mind. I spent a week in a psychiatric ward and then was released. Let me tell you I am not better. Nothing has changed pain is still there, judgement is still there. But I am now expected to be grateful to be alive. Let me tell you nothing changed I still feel the same. The worst moment in my life was waking up in the hospital to realize I was not successful. Still trying to find a reason I am here other than to experience pain. #Fibromyalgia #SuicideSurvivor #Bipolar #Depression #mentalhealthsucks
Using my artistic imagination to express my gratitude for surviving a lifetime of trauma #SaveMe #Reality #Trauma #SuicideSurvivor #MentalHealth #myownprison
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Below is a picture of my parents, Sandy & Jim.
My dad—my person—died suddenly two weeks after my 10th birthday in the summer of 1978 of an apparent heart attack. It wasn’t until I was 45 years old that I learned he had actually taken his own life.
I’m 54 now, with two grown daughters of my own, and this weekend I’ll be walking in my first Out of The Darkness Walk to Fight Suicide sponsored by the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention with my husband and girls. And I have to say, in the days leading up to the walk, I’ve definitely been feeling all the feels; so I thought this would be the perfect place to share what’s in my head and heart space right now.
It’s been close to a decade since I learned the truth about my father’s death, but only a handful of years since I rewrote my internal narrative of suicide and mental illness and begun advocating for suicide prevention and sharing my story. Because, for the longest time, as so many people do, I believed suicide to be a selfish act. But not anymore. Now, I can say with total certainty, that learning the truth about my dad’s mental illness has not only changed my belief system about suicide, but it’s changed the trajectory of my life.
Since learning that my dad ended his own life, I’ve come to understand that mental illness is an illness like any other, one that needs to be acknowledged and understood and treated. I’ve also begun sharing my personal experience with suicide and grief and loss with everyone who’s willing been to listen. And I’ve been overwhelmed by the number of people expressing their gratitude that I’m talking so openly about something that’s been hidden in the shadows for so long.
So many of the people who have heard my story of losing my dad twice have said they’ve felt less alone, simply by virtue of our shared experience. And that’s a gift. Because there’s a beautiful community here within this unique “club” we’re all a part of, and within that community is healing and forgiveness and hope.
In the days leading up to tomorrow’s walk, I’ve definitely felt feelings of anxiousness because I’ve yet to be surrounded, at one time, by that many people who’ve endured a similar level of loss and trauma to mine. At the same time, though, I’m also feeling feelings of anticipation and an almost eagerness to be around people who so deeply understand what I’m feeling. So, I’m doing the hard thing and walking to honor my dad’s life and to show my support for those who are still struggling with mental illness. Most importantly, tho, I’m showing up as a reminder that we’re not alone as we navigate grief and loss and mental illness. And that’s been the key for me as I’ve unpacked and unearthed so many emotions over the course of this loss. Knowing that I’m not alone has been a guiding light for me. And knowing that even with grief comes love and growth.
Have you shared your story of loss? If you have, has sharing given you strength and hope?
#SuicideSurvivor
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