LittleMe

Dear friends in the distance, thank you so much for your kind comments, advices and prayers. So it hasn't been a good week for me, it has been raining all week and the governor just announced he might be closing down Puerto Vallarta for another 14 days if cases of #covid continue to rise. I am freaking out because we haven't made enough for rent and we still owe last months. I know I'm only 15, but are the headaches normal when you have to pay for rent? Do grown people get them every month? I'm thinking of talking to my grandma and maybe she can stay with someone from church and I'll continue to work and pay for her meals and I can ask my only friend if his parents would mind letting me stay in their garage or something. I feel like a failure, all I've done has been just to delay this. I can't face my grandma, look her in the eyes and tell her this, will she cry? Will she be disappointed? Will she blame me for not doing enough? Will she be upset with me? I cannot ask her to go into a home because I need her as my legal guardian and I cannot quit school now. I need to hold on to this part of my life to keep me sane, for my sake. I feel like that movie Dear Simon, where I write to an unknown person behind their screen and just vent, hoping for a little advice on what to do with my life, our lives.

Dear friends in the distance, thank you so much for your kind comments, advices and prayers. So it hasn't been a good week for me, it has been raining all week and the governor just announced he might be closing down Puerto Vallarta for another 14 days if cases of #covid continue to rise. I am freaking out because we haven't made enough for rent and we still owe last months. I know I'm only 15, but are the headaches normal when you have to pay for rent? Do grown people get them every month? I'm thinking of talking to my grandma and maybe she can stay with someone from church and I'll continue to work and pay for her meals and I can ask my only friend if his parents would mind letting me stay in their garage or something. I feel like a failure, all I've done has been just to delay this. I can't face my grandma, look her in the eyes and tell her this, will she cry? Will she be disappointed? Will she blame me for not doing enough? Will she be upset with me? I cannot ask her to go into a home because I need her as my legal guardian and I cannot quit school now. I need to hold on to this part of my life to keep me sane, for my sake. I feel like that movie Dear Simon, where I write to an unknown person behind their screen and just vent, hoping for a little advice on what to do with my life, our lives.

Dear friends in the distance, thank you so much for your kind comments, advices and prayers. So it hasn't been a good week for me, it has been raining all week and the governor just announced he might be closing down Puerto Vallarta for another 14 days if cases of #COVID continue to rise. I am freaking out because we haven't made enough for rent and we still owe last months. I know I'm only 15, but are the headaches normal when you have to pay for rent? Do grown people get them every month? I'm thinking of talking to my grandma and maybe she can stay with someone from church and I'll continue to work and pay for her meals and I can ask my only friend if his parents would mind letting me stay in their garage or something. I feel like a failure, all I've done has been just to delay this. I can't face my grandma, look her in the eyes and tell her this, will she cry? Will she be disappointed? Will she blame me for not doing enough? Will she be upset with me? I cannot ask her to go into a home because I need her as my legal guardian and I cannot quit school now. I need to hold on to this part of my life to keep me sane, for my sake. I feel like that movie Dear Simon, where I write to an unknown person behind their screen and just vent, hoping for a little advice on what to do with my life, our lives.