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Hi, my name is Sara. I'm here because I’m looking for support for my mental health diagnoses. I’ve been in treatment for 12 years with multiple stints in PHP/IOP. My mental health has been doing worse since working in COVID ICU and traumatic losses.

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I've been on this fun fibromyalgia ride for over 30 YEARS. Initially I received it as a garbage can diagnosis from a rheumatologist who ran tests and found "nothing" wrong -- besides pain all over my body and intractable migraine. He obviously didn't believe in fibro. That Dr was short lived. Then there's the sports medicine Dr who was sexually inappropriate and blamed my neck pain on my large breasts (I'll spare you the grim details) -- not the car accident I'd just survived. Adios, little man in cowboy boots! I had a pain Dr literally traumatize me and physically damage my neck ON PURPOSE and refused to give me any pain meds. Ended up at urgent care where the Dr couldn't believe I'd had this painful procedure and no pain management. Another Dr got me hooked on oxy for years which was a godsend initially but I was definitely addicted and it was ruining my life. I stopped cold turkey by myself. Another pain Dr retired during covid. New pain Dr is very kind and his website claims he treats fibromyalgia but all he's done is a few injections in my hips. Nothing for the SI joint disorder which I've had for years. No mention of treating my fibromyalgia. There's more. A lot more. I have a neurologist and a PA at her office. Despite research saying fibromyalgia is a neuro disorder, my neurolost won't treat it. Referred me back to my GP who sent me or to a rheumatologist. Plus other stuff: chiropractic, PT, massage, acupuncture, etc. I also have a psychiatrist and a therapist. Pardon my language but I'm fucking FED UP with the lack of care for fibromyalgia. Where do all of you go? All the clinics specializing in fibromyalgia are really just chiropractors in chiropractic offices. What I wouldn't give to put all my doctors in one room and say ok -- diagnosis and treatment plan please.

I'm getting really apprehensive about tomorrow.I am pacing around and can't settle. I am seeing my Dad. Last week, he had a major go at me on the phone saying how my tyre on my car was worn and wasn't legal. It was fine as it had only just had its yearly check. You will crash, you will kill a child, the police will arrest you , it won't be my fault as i have told you...its illegal. If you turn up without getting a new tyre by monday, i won't be getting in the car. He went on and on and on, having a rant at me like i was a child again. After 1½ hrs i managed to get off the phone. I was a wreck, it had already been an emotionally draining day. I went into a panic attack. I managed to get my youngest daughter on video call as , by this time, i was uncontrollably crying, i couldn't get my breath and thought i was going to pass out. Bless her she managed to get my breathing under control. I came off the phone and the feelings arose in me again , I had 3 days to get these tyres sorted. What if i couldn't?, what will i do on Monday he will miss his Covid booster nd it will be my fault. Panic again consumed me, and the only escape i had was to self harm.
Even though i do not need tyres i bought all four and managed to get them fitted before tomorrow. I spent money that i couldn't afford. All this because I am still scared of my Dad and the way he makes me feel. He still has a hold over me
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Update:
Well, I made it through the day with my Dad. He still went on about the tyre, was being loud and making inappropriate comments about people walking passed us and other things. But because we were out I tried my best to switch off from my surroundings and his non stop talking, even though inside I was full of mixed emotions, and desperately wanted to get to the safety of my own home. I am so glad I found The Mighty. Being able to share my thoughts, worries, or anything else and having your support means so much. Thank you 😊

Hi, my name is Lgilley. I'm here because I read a blog on face book! She described me for the last 20 years last 4 years have been a nightmare of constant illness fatigue! Had Covid 3-4 times plus 2 surgeries a reaction to Covid vaccine that was not good! Resulting in need to retire d:t brain fog and worsening s/s of fibromyalgia .

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