Lostconfidence

#CheckInWithMe

I have been in grad school for 8 months and was told by my advisor to take a leave of absence to get my mental health straightened out. So that starts in a week. I have 3 kids who all need more than I can give. One son is depressed and throws the word “suicide” around. He just turned 8. His twin has Aspergers. His sister is 10 going on 15 and a “normal” challenge. Since I was in school I had loans and not working.
Trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel but depression has kicked in to high heat these past two weeks. Throw in my anxiety and Prozac and Wellbutrin aren’t enough. Some weed helps but all in all I’m feeling lost. Not a good father. Not a good provider. Not a good husband. Not a good anything.