Lotsofotherissues

Here’s a poem I wrote a couple of years ago. Poetry sometimes helps me get my feelings straight. #Poetry #RheumatoidArthritis #Lotsofotherissues

Chronic Thoughts

I walk in pain but you can't tell
Because I keep it hidden, behind a shell
I say I'm fatigued, you think I'm just tired
I wish I could tell my body it's fired.
I say I have no energy, you think I'm lazy
I can't understand, I'm a bit hazy
You think I'm faking it but that's a lie
I wonder if you even know why
I am in pain every single day
My body shuts down and I have no say
I feel guilty that I cannot do
All the things that healthy people do
Thoughts of what people might think weigh me down
Or are they my thoughts that make me frown
I hurt, I struggle and I cry
Then I put the mask on and I try
Tomorrow's a new day, maybe it'll be good
Maybe I'll do things I didn't think I could
Or maybe the day will be really bad
And maybe I'll again be angry and sad
Spend a day in my shoes and you will see
How bad having an invisible illness can be

Katie DesChenes © July 11, 2016