Loveyourelf

Today I woke up and my body was weak, empty, cold and cringed up from crying so much. My head was under my covers where oxygen was lacking and all I could breathe in was my own air I was breathing out. Tears kept pouring out of me like they had been waiting for the first one to fall so they all could follow along. I’m trapped inside the body of somebody I don’t want to be. I want to be happy and care free and full of life again. I want to run around without shoes and forget what I feels like to carry demons on your shoulder and monsters in your mind. I want to forget about the bad people can do and just focus on the good. I want to be myself and not care what anybody thinks. I want to CONTROL myself and not let my emotions and illness control me, or medications or opinionated people. At the end of today, I put on makeup, I got dressed, showered, brushed my teeth, and I went out and told myself to go or else I’d drown in my mind. Sometimes all we need is ourselves and we don’t even realize that. Everything we seek can be found within our own bodies. #BeAware #Loveyourelf #PickYourselfUp #Selflove #seekhelp