self-love

After a busy morning with the kids and a meeting with my cpn which always drains me talking about my mental health. I felt the burnout after lunch time and my partner picked up the kids all I could do was rest which I constantly beat myself up for. I ate healthy all day and am determined to carry on. I need a way of keeping my energy levels up throughout the day, I hate that when the kids get back I’m always resting. I started on the chore or tidying my daughters room when they got back but could only manage a bit. I made them dinner which is always really rewarding for me to see them sit at the table nicely together and eat a meal I have cooked without any complaining. It’s probably something to do with how my therapist says I see everything with “perfection” glasses on and everything needs to go the way I think it should with the house. I started to get really tired, stressed and agitated which easily can lead to self harm. So I used opposite action and decided to make a really healthy salad to go alongside my dinner. My partner loves to do the cooking as normally I’m dealing with the kids or having to rest about that time. But it was really rewarding and I’m hoping to keep up the healthy eating today and possibly get in the kitchen this evening. Have a very busy day ahead of me today so let’s see how today goes.