missingfamily

I recently lost my grandma, this is her on her wedding day 🥺
She raised me
She taught me
She loved me
She meet my kids
I was blessed
She was amazing
SHE KNEW EVERYTHING (at least I think so 😭)
I wanna rage
I wanna break everything thing
I want to dissolve
Sit in the middle of the room and scream
My borderline wont let me feel one inch of ok, it’s flared so bad the amount of shifts in my emotions per day is scaring me
I feel like I may burst, and my hard work on staying mindful is slipping out my grip

I called her every time I felt alone and scared or confused
She was amazing, did I mention that? Lol
She was dramatic just like me, and made me feel every bit ok to be myself
I am devastated
S.O.S