im stuck in a low. I was rolling for two weeks and now im just stuck and the ONE person i NEED to understand doesnt. Im alone. Im not feeling good enough. Between my bpd and this im so lost. Today im seriously struggling to love any part of me. Im struggling and he doesn't care and would rather call me crazy or push buttons until he gets me to explode it shouldnt feel that way. Im rambling now but im just.. im so tired of living this way. Im tired of never being understood. Im tired of feeling unloved unwanted and not needed. Im tired of crying. Im tired of trying to pull myself out because this time it just isnt working. I just want to scream and scream and scream until i pass out. I cant do that because the amazing little people i love that love me unconditionally, need me. Especially my middle baby- level 3 autism (nonverbal).

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