Depression. It is a demon in my life that seems to be taking control. Exercise they say. Write they say. Start a hobby they say. All of which I have done. I have tried. All of which I have failed at. My depression. I hate it. I wake up tired. But in a good mood... most days. I drink my morning coffee. I get my kids ready for school then drop them off. I come home and I'm not the same I was when I left. 15 minutes for my day to change. I want to go back to bed. I am sick to my stomach. I want to cry... but I can't. I try to clean. I try to read. I try to do school work. I try to play a game. I try and I fail. Every day I look at myself. I am fat. I am ugly. I try to change that... I really do. My depression comes in and I ask... Whats the point? I look for an answer to that but its pointless. Im still fighting this demon and it won't go away. How do I feel? I want to leave. I want to die. Why? Because the pain wouldnt torture me anymore. #Mydepression #MyDemon