In my family suicide is more deadly than a heart attack. #lostgrandparents #orphanedfather
I’m the ‘lucky one’ to inherit this gene of bi-polar, anxiety, depression, etc. I always wondered why I only had 1 set of grandparents and was always told I wasn’t old enough to understand. I was 16 when one day I was in the car with my dad, did he tell me what happened to them. His mother was ‘manic’ as they called it back then. Up and down was all he remembers of her. After several attempts he didn’t understand at the age of 8. She finally pulled an electrical fan into the bath tub and electrocuted herself. Devistated by her loss a year later his father hung himself and my father found him.
My dad has overcome a lot and today he considers suicide a form of desperately trying to control your ill mind.
I’ve been in the hospital/mental wellness center twice, once by doctors orders and once because I knew I needed more growth, self compassion, tools and a retreat. My Dad had been by my side every step even more so than my husband. I’m a very lucky girl.
Furthermore AFTER CARE! So much is missing from the full equation for what happens next. It’s not always HIPPA hang ups which do suck but being turned out, back into the environment, lack of support there after.
I will honestly say my second hospital stay could have been prevented had I had proper aftercare.
#aftercare