Mania

I’m manic and sad idk how to explain I’m manic enough to only function with three hours of sleep but I’m sad that I have exams I need to study and I’m looking back at my teenage self hoping I could get that joy n life n impulsivity I had back then but now I just feel old useless and broken down #CheckInWithMe #BipolarDisorder #Manic #ADHD #BipolarDepression

I’m manic and sad idk how to explain I’m manic enough to only function with three hours of sleep but I’m sad that I have exams I need to study and I’m looking back at my teenage self hoping I could get that joy n life n impulsivity I had back then but now I just feel old useless and broken down #CheckInWithMe #BipolarDisorder #Manic #ADHD #BipolarDepression

Part 1 of 2 I’ve discussed how you can’t necessarily “THINK” your way out of a situation as healing involves more than just mindset. Most of the time when you say affirmations it is only received by the mind and not even then. You see the body is much smarter than you give it credit for and it knows when you don’t fully accept or believe something. So if it knows you are faking it to make it-it doesn’t allow the integration to occur. In other words it calls B*LLSH*T on you and the new behavior you are trying to implement.

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This is why it’s hard to keep a resolution.

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This is why it’s hard to break a habit.

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This is why its hard to change your behavior or be open to change in any sort of way

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The good thing is that when you use affirmations while being in the physical body, embodying the practice, it is integrated and accepted. The body’s intelligence is aware when you are paying attention to its messages in a loving way. This mindfulness can go a long way in your journey of creating change. And in this change can be less pain and sickness and more well being.

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And this is why it is so powerful when I affirm my clients in each session they have with me while they are practicing breathwork. Because even if they aren’t consciously aware of what I am saying the body can receive it in this altered state of consciousness. The nervous system is your subconscious and it picks up meanings and messages from life’s experiences that you may not be aware of.

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I’ve included some affirmations that I thought you could say to your body when the messages are coming through loud and clear. And you aren’t sure what they are trying to tell you. Rather than choosing to fear or stifle the emotions or sensations can you be open to their meaning? Maybe you decide to implement more curiosity in your life for 2024. Rather then your go to thought or reaction of being angry, resentful and frustrated with the body.

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Maybe instead you can offer it some love in the way of being present. Choosing to place your hand on the part that is giving you the message and whisper one of these.

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Here are some from Louise Hay, a healer and author who believed one hundred percent in the connection of the body messages and illness

“I do not fix problems. I fix my thinking. Then problems fix themselves”.

“I will not be distracted by noise, chatter, or setbacks. Patience, commitment, grace, and purpose will guide me”.

“In the infinity of life where I am, all is perfect, whole and complete. I no longer choose to believe in old limitations and lack. I now choose to begin to see myself as the Universe sees me — perfect, whole, and complete”.

“All is well. Everything is working out for my highest good”.

“I am in the right place at the right time, doing the right thing”.

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Here are some that I use:

“I choose to see what is right about this that I may not be getting”. Dr. Kim D’Eramo

“It’s safe to ask for help. People want to support me”. Gabby Bernstein

“I am open to new possibilities for healing”. Amy Stein

“I am practicing sitting in uncertainty as that is all there really is in life”. Amy Stein/Tracy H.

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If any of these phrases helped you today or any day, I encourage you to put them in a visible spot that you can see as a reminder! Let them remind you of how strong you are no matter what may come your way. Keep in mind that you want to embody the practice not just repeat the words but really feel how they land and if they invoke a sensation or emotion.

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I was much more comfortable with saying my affirmations, doing the protocols and changing my diet. The idea of the inner work paralyzed as many of us are taught to fear our emotions and sensations. It can cause you to view your body as the enemy and avoid any and all feelings. This is actually why you become sick and experience pain in the first place.

Are you ready to try something new, which isn’t really all that new or hard? In this session with me you can learn how powerful your breath can be to release pain and stuck emotions? Which in turn lessen your symptoms and ailments. I speak about how I practiced manic healing for years, doing everything in my head but never landing in my body. I thought I could re-wire my brain and change my mindset and I would be cured. But this doesn’t work because you need to be present in the physical body to allow healing to occur. Want to experience what can happen when you welcome in emotions and sensations in a safe

I’m sick of living my life of severe depression that leads to mania that destroys everyone around me and other families to the point of me hibernating in my home after the damage I’ve made afraid of running into someone I was manic around. I’m going on 4 yrs of fear regret,shame and guilt constantly consuming me.

Part 1 of 2 I see the handful of pills you’ve just posted on Facebook, which in turn has been reposted onto your Instagram account just in case anyone missed it.

Six pills are scattered in the palm of your hand. I can see you brushed up the image, maybe added a little light, or a little tint to this snapshot of your life. You’re complaining about having to take pills every day. How these pills are taking over your #BipolarDisorder life.

I’m going to have to shut this down.

I commented on your snapshot. It’s not what I normally do, I usually troll on social media for places that I can plug my memoir. But today, today you’ve gone a bit too far.

I’ve seen many of these pictures with the caption ‘look how many I have to take’, like it’s a competition that no one is judging except your followers. In the comments, other people post their hands in similar positions. Cupped around their pills. You left me no choice but to comment.

‘Sorry but I’m going to have to call this post out. You should be lucky that you have enough money to fill your prescriptions. You should feel grateful that you have a doctor to prescribe these meds. All of the inpatients, or the homeless at the moment might not have had these opportunities that you have right now. I get it, it sucks to have to swallow 2-3 times extra per day … but please stop to think about how luck you are to have been diagnosed, prescribed, and are being followed to make sure that your health is okay. #BipolarDisorder is hard, I will agree with you on that. But please be empathetic to the millions of people who don’t get your opportunity to medicate.’

I sound whiney as my fingers type these words, of course I do. But I don’t see a point to flaunt them. You have to drink water every day, you need to eat as well. Where is the post with a head of broccoli in your hand complaining that you need to eat. Where is the post with your toilet bowl full of urine, complaining that you needed to take time out of your day to urinate.

I hope you’re writing all of this down.

Someone, somewhere, has made this into a competition. But here’s the thing, I could have a diagnosis of #BipolarDisorder and only be prescribed one pill. Would that somehow lessen my diagnosis because my hand would only be cupped around one white pill laying in the centre of my palm?

Short answer, No. Just because you take twenty two pills, it does not make your #BipolarDisorder worse than mine or vice versa. We all metabolize medications differently. I started my medication journey at age nine. There were times I took twenty-seven pills, there were other times where I took seven. The thing with #MentalHealth is, we need different help at different times in our lives. While I was pregnant, there were several medications that I needed to stop taking. This didn’t mean that I was suddenly cured because I was on less. There were times that I was taking more pills because the drug that I was on only came in 25’s, and I needed three of them to complete my dosage. It might look like a lot in my palms if I were to waste my time and post it. I might be on several medications where I need to take three or four pills of the same drug.

But let’s get back to why you’re flaunting them, and why I have such an issue with seeing your post.

There are millions of people who are suffering right now, who don’t have access to what you have. There are people deciding if they should eat that week or fill their prescriptions. There are people who have been on the waiting list for years just to see a psychiatrist. And that psychiatrist will most likely only see them once, prescribe medication then refer them back to the family doctor who knows nothing about the medication that you were just prescribed. If you suddenly aren’t doing well, you have to go back on the wait list.

So, hear me when I say, if you are on medications for your disorder, and are being followed by a psychiatrist, you are one of the lucky ones.

You complain that medications are ruining your life. You wrote it at the end of your post. And I know there are side effects, and weight gain, and a million other reasons you don’t like to be on medications, and when you think like this, I want you to picture the inpatients who have been brought in because their #Mania went so far up without help, that they need to be hospitalized to bring them down. These people are wasting years in the hospital, well over the time it takes you to swallow extra daily. I want you t

Part 2 of 2 o picture all of the depressives that are staring from bridges because they weren’t helped, or they were left on the wait list for too long.

I want you to smile and remember how lucky you are to be in the position that you are in, because we are not all so lucky.

Hi everyone, I was wondering if there is anyone here who is going through/has been in grad school to give me some advice. I am working online with my supervisors and we meet once a week over zoom. I was wondering if it is a good idea to tell my supervisors that I am unable to work on a lot of days. They have been very disappointed in my work and how slow I am while learning (they had previously worked with me before and were really impressed with my work). I feel like they think I am a slow learner and taking weeks to generate any results when in fact I am working atmost 2-3 days a week because I just can't on the other days. They know about my bipolar disorder (I was manic and diagnosed while working on my thesis so I had no choice but to let them know). However, even though they have been supportive and patient, I don't think they understand how to fully support me. What do you think? Is it a good idea to tell them that I am basically doing this "part time" in some sense, and will it be helpful?

I am recovering from a severe manic episode (my first time), the crash that comes after and the depression you sink into. My life has been absolutely ruined due to four months of mania. I also broke up with my boyfriend of four years during this time - who was my biggest support system. He left because I was actively suicidal and depressed for six months and he said he can't handle it anymore. We lived together so I miss having someone always by my side to talk to. I am all alone and I don't know how to cope. I am in grad school and was supposed to complete my Masters thesis and graduate next month. However I can't do that anymore. I was supposed to do a three month project in Perth, Australia since I am studying astronomy and I had to cancel that as well because I got put on very heavy antipsychotics and mood stabilizers. I have had to deal with a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, the aftermaths as well as do my thesis. I have been fighting and trying my best to get up everyday and face this nightmare but I keep breaking down. I never fucking wanted to live in the first place - there's no point in existing. But if I have to, I want to live a good life and that is not fucking possible for me. I work so hard and try so much but these crises keep happening. I have tried so many meds and so much therapy - I have been trying since I was 16 and was first depressed. I have had existential thoughts about how pointless life is way before that.

Right now, I really have to do a lot of work on my thesis and I try really really hard but I can't make progress. I have worked with my supervisors before when I was healthy and they used to love my work and wrote glowing recommendation letters. Now my work is slow and subpar and they are very disappointed. I don't know if they will ever give me a good reference. I have always wanted to do a PhD and I was supposed to apply last year and start one this Fall, but all the deadlines have passed since I was manic and going insane for most of last year - so for an entire year I will have to sit at home doing nothing. I have worked so hard throughout my years in college even when I was fucking depressed and suicidal, kept my grades up and did projects all to one day be able to do a PhD outside my country. I know how competitive grad school is - and after everything that happened I don'y know if I will get to do it. And even when everything is fine - I get hit with deep strong bouts of INTENSE PAIN which I can't even describe. The last four days have been terrible and talking to no one has helped. I have lost four days of work and I won't be able to show any work next week to my supervisors. I don't know what the fuck to do. I am so tired and exhausted of this shit.