I had the biggest meltdown today over a simple payroll issue #cryingonthefloor . I am so tried of being ashamed of my flashback emotions. I feel trapped in a cage with a ticking time bomb, only the timer has no sequence. No matter how long it has been or how much forgiveness I spout. In a moment, I am right back there blaming myself and stripping down for impending doom #ptsdisamf #PTSD