I’ve been home all day, too tired to get off the couch, in and out of sleep. It’s hard to even move so taking a shower is out of the question. I haven’t showered in days but I need to. After trying to get up all day I finally make it to the shower. I turn the water on and it’s cold. My whole world collapsed. All the energy I spent trying to get up just wasted.

What’s the point? Why get up? Why shower? None of it matters. Maybe if I got up earlier the water would’ve been hot. I’m such a waste of space.

Those are the thoughts that go thru my head as I sit on the bathroom floor sobbing like someone died. But someone has died. The person I used to be. The person who would just take a cold shower and be clean. Idk anymore.

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